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*sigh*
even tho i had a BLAST celebrating my new year, everything was how i wanted it to be, when everything seems perfect, it just wasn't enough =/
it couldn't BURY dis resentment i have for a certain someone. it just wasn't enough to dispose dis sickly feeling right here in my chest. its still there =/
& the first ever complication for the year is, what am i gonna do bout dis?
like i said, i have a fear of talking & letting out things. BODOH. im scared dat if i say wat i wanted to im told dat im wrong. im scared dat if i let it out, the person will reveal more stuff dat'll hurt me more. but more than dat, im scared dat im told i was WRONG.
dat wat i felt all dis time was mere rubbish; it was nothing. my misery is not to be cared about. coz i was WRONG. really, DAT PERSON never really did let me stand up to myself. not to dat person at least. i can go against anyone but....dat person~
should i finally let out wat she already noe? should i change from wat i was last year? wats the right thing to do? argh. for the sake of her, i kept it. it was too much for her, probably couldn't handle the truth. but look at how i turned up.
with wat happened just very very very recently, actually, i noe wats to be done, =/ if i wanted a peaceful year, i have to talk.
*sigh*
those four words are just easier said than done. can people just be more considerate? can people just noe their own mistakes? really....i really2 dislike the type dat did something but just decided to buat bodoh. klu buat bodoh n not do it again nda pa, we're all prone to making mistakes. but sudala buat bodoh. buat lagi. kan mmg bodoh.
ingau. ingaaaaaaaaau.
hmmmm okay i whine. dont like it then dont read.
2 comments:
HANNAH!!!!!!!!!!
well...
the one thing that really burns the shit in our heart is that, we want to say something, point the shit straight to their faces.... and problem is that they might not understnd and think that they are right and we are wrong.
if you done those four words, and still, they dont listen... THAT'S the problem with them. THEY DONT listen...
at least you've done ur part and say everything there is. if she buat bodo.... biar la... asalkan u tidak. let it out. for what its worth, i think sooner or later she will come together. not now though.
for a better year hannah.
changes is what we need right now.
i know how this feels...
sometimes, it wont work out the way we wanted it to be but we will work this through together ya knw.
hopefully.
;)
iyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaa
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
*behingus*
dat is so rite ='(
uuuuwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaa thankiu so much myyyyyy
LUV U GUUURRRRRLLL!!!!! =))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i reali2 forgot bout dat...the part where u hav a role in dis, & when ur done, its up to the second party pulak =/
THANKS FOR REMINDING ME!!!!!!!!
CAPAT KU MAU JUMPA MU!!!!!!! ^^
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