dude, do not shake the bottle. seriously.

being nice really just gives u issues huh? woookay.

u know how my post usually starts with stuff like,

"Im feeling kind of............"

"It's just so sad................"

"Im so angry that............."

"Im stressed out......."

"Syam is so hot........"

oops.



that last sentence.....probably was the first time i write it here =D

couldn't resist LMAO!!




nakal! :P *distracted for a good 10 minutes*







ERHEM.


i think i've mentioned it before too, when trying to not be a pain in someone's ass, it brings pain into ur own ass. T_T aye, sad but true. that seems to be like a theme for my life. im cursed. for a whole lifetime.

i have like a trivial & complicated issue with a certain someone whom i do not wanna mention. i wanna forget the whole thing, we're supposed to be close, heck, we're flesh & blood. but, that person dissapointed & hurt me so badly, i couldn't even talk it out with him/her. *i wanna keep this person anonymous.*

i've wrote about this person before in my previous posts. and i kept how i felt & my thoughts to myself as it feels disgusting even on my tounge to talk about it. I REALLY CAN'T! that indifferent face & nonchalant behaviour really from him/her puts me down. that person knew what he/she had done to me but it seems like he/she doesn't care.

seeing as how talking won't get anywhere anyways, i tried to swallow everything & forget about it. but when something so strong is bottled up in u, it is bound to leak its way out of ur heart. i am human nonetheless. i do have feelings.

so, that person went & did some things that really2 pisses me off & those kept emotions of mine arised. if it hasn't anything to do with what happened in the past, its okay. the thing is, it HAS something to do with it. undoubtedly, i guess that person really does not understand what im going thru. =(

penat. really penat with this. im tired of compromising. with me refusing to not come clean with u, im doing u one BIG FAT FAVOUR. im sparing u the guilt that u should've felt due to ur own actions. im burdening my own self carrying this heavy bottle containing of ur wrong doings to me, so shouldn't it be like a silent mutual thing? u r the MATURE ONE.

so dude...................do not shake the bottle. seriously.

update! ;D

1. my hair's straighten, rebonded & i have fringe. curious?? next post la pict. :P

2. still not working. no surprise there LMAO im pathethic, but am still cute. ^_____________________________^ i will slap myself later. hmm..im still struggling thru dis one. but im optimistic!!

3. i am confused, hurt, & feeling casted away right now. no surprise either eh? im destined somehow for negativity. optimistic, yes :D

4. discovery!! my cats penjealous rupanya. pantang, kami makan dia pun mau. kami ketawa drg pun lompat2 mau attention. olololoooo.

5. im totally in an experimenting mode. no boundaries, trying everything new =) hehe

6. ok, i want everyone to know this. if ur a girl, & me being friends with ur boyfriend bothers the fuck out of u, tell me straight out & i'll leave both of u alone. if ur a boy, & me being friends with u pisses the heck outta ur girlfriend, dont waste my time k? dont drag me into ur issues. i know how i am, i have seen how a person is intentionally wanting attention that it disrupts a relationship, or it bothers either one, the guy or the girl; but i am not THAT GIRL. that kind of BITCH ruined my life (momentarily) before & i swore that THAT is what i DONT want to be.

7. there'll be more potty-mouthing, & they're not sugar-coated hehe. ERHEM. im 21 years old, becoming 22 soon. ive pretty much seen a lot of people by now. & experience quite a few things. so i'll know a MORON when i see one. try not to judge me as the baby-faced soft-spoken hannah all the time. i can be the in-ur-face hannah too.

8. i have a BEDHEAD SMUDGIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i'll stop being angry & start being grateful for the good things that happened recently.

hehahaha "personality" tests

ngeheh....i went to amesz's blog, & jumpala website filled wit personality tests :D

nden nden nden...

i took la the quiz that she took, plus...........50 others? :D :D :D :D :D :D

man were they interesting aaaahahhahahaha!!!

some were accurate, some just made me laugh my intestines off.

yg ini,

what's on ur mind?

& the result was,

You think money and love are equally important. You have an interest in many things in life, and work hard to ensure that you maintain a healthy balance between work, play and love. However, you tend to be unable to decide on what you really want to do with your life. You wouldn't dream of leaving your loved one for one or two million dollars, but you would have to reconsider if the offer rose to 100 million dollars.

dat is exactly on my mind, if u read my other posts @_@ i noe, im selfish =/ but like it says,

"maintain a healthy balance between work, play & love"

so im trying to balance it all out!! hee~ =)

the clothes u wear

What others see from your style

You wear whatever you please, you are probably confident, stubborn, strong-minded and independent. Deep down, however, you think that you are being excluded from society. You wish you belonged, but as you don't, you're going to follow your own rules.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts

You tend to be outspoken and even aggressive. You either love or hate people, ideas and things. You can sometimes find facing the truth difficult and are an extremely confident person.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are a hardworking people. You are serious and capable. You know what you want out of life, and you go after it.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

one thing's right,

"you wish u belong, but as you don't, you're going to follow your own rules"

HELL YEAAAHHHH!!!! i can be a chameleon, tukar2 warna kulit demi sama tema dgn persekitaran, but im my own person ^_^

interesting...i didnt noe earrings can show how hardworking u r :D :D :D :D :D :D but i like the results for this =)

favorite place in your home

Here is the analysis:

You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

"You attract people just by the way you talk"

that's coz they haven't heard me burp & fart LMAO..AHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

no one's jealous of me u idiot

your sixth sense

Your Sixth Sense Score: 73%

You are reasonable and won't get blown by temptations. However, you might miss some great opportunities.

u made me answer 20 friggin' qs & this is all u got? sudala results nda besh. cis.

the most miserable situation

dis quiz will tell u kind of person u r by choosing which one is the most miserable situation for u.

my analysis,

You are basically a person who enjoys reminiscing.

You are a very emotional person indeed, easily influenced by people and your surroundings. For example, if society is sad about the death of famous people, you will share these sentiments, or when watching a sad movie, you will be so engrossed that you will end up being sadder than the main actors in the movie.

YOUR LOVE

Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?

...... *speechless* oh ur good. this one is...100% accurate :P i love reminiscing on those good old times =) =) =) my childhood is as clear as yesterday ^_____^

i am SENSITIVE!!!! BETUL NI BA!!!!! especially bout the movie part..u should've seen me & amesz watching marley & me TTT_______TTT hint: our shirts' colars were wet..... :P

i am confused, im aware of this xP

what's in the cave?

Here is the analysis:

You are emotional. If the opportunity arises, you have a chance to cheat on your boyfriend/girlfriend.

o.......kay...u noe, ur putting ideas into my head witout me even thinking it :D adaaaala jd unfaithful ni...but i gotta find an unlucky b*stard first :P miahahahhahahah!!!

i put a link into those quizzes, be welcome to try em :D

hahh ni la ba klu tgh boring, apa2 ja pun layan :D :D :D

wokehh bisuk si dang minah haji johari pnya anak kawin...my third cousin...yg aku bru tau..dia...kazen aku :D :D :D :D

sleeep sleep sleep sleep

zzzzZZzzzZZzzZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZZzzz....

borotband ini bodoh

astaga. i want to upload getek picts of me & my friends laaaaaaaaaaa ='(

i dont know wat the heck possesed dis stupid broadband, but i cant seem to upload my picts!!!!!! in facebook, let alone friendster...I CANT EVEN LOG IN!!!!!

ok2, i know. they're just online socializing websites. buuuuuuuuuuut but but but ='(

alalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i wanna share them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant see my own photo albums!!!!!!! going to other's profile lmbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

='( ='(

my bp....has increased >:( *buwekk*