L.O.V.E.

It's better to feel many types of sadness then coming to a home that's EMPTY. =) My family ROOOCCCCCKKKKKSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/

who am i kidding =)

bah. hannah. if u can't & won't let urself pour out anything, then dammit stop wasting ur damn time!!!

pardon my mood swings yah. besala. xena the warrior princess. @_@

i'm not supposed to be awake right now, i have to wake up early to go jogging with my sayang2Ku at taman likas tomorow. ahh well, i'll still wake up early tomorow nonetheless, so it matters not :D

*kenapa...ayat ku...begini?*

at times, i do act HUMAN & feel that i am unable to suppress or pretend nothing is happening to me internally. there i was trying to write another ludicrous post about my silly self & trying to cheer myself up while joking & saying stuff dat'll make people laugh. hahh. like i said, who am i kidding?

aaaaaiiiiii..fil laik ai don hev tu opolojais for biying imo. it is my blog aint it.

*another symptom of mine...Paranoid*

im sure people sometimes feel like they half wanted to say something, & also not wanting to let people in & know what's bothering them, & thus they end up complaining about.......absolutely NOTHING at all. =D sorry baaaaaaaaaaah. gini la ba kerja aku kalau blogging. nda paedah2 miahahahaha.

so i can't make a funny post bout my imperfections for now & laughing hard at it & feeling relieved & believing that i am contempt. FOR NOW tho. =D =D =D =D =D

i need to just accept this for the moment & not let anything spoil it. i think im gonna have a good sleep tonight & dream about the beautiful day i had today ^________________^

*sounds a tad too sickly & sweet for a moment there @_@*

yippee

WAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







i can't stand this. i am so not comprehended right now, i'm like a foreign language to some people. im confusing. im baffling.











WEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!











im losing my mind here. urgh.













ok i whine. BITE ME.

probably drank too much coffee

=D




padan muka. neeeeehhh.






tehee~ i dont know what to do with myself~ JENG JENG!!! dunnooo what to doooo with myseeeelf jeng jeng!! aaaAAAaaaaAAAA.....

hear me ROAR

my head was touched by a 210 Celsius steel. HOT. so horizontally, i have burns on my head that looks like a bunch of booger stickers stacking on the left side of my nagen. pretty? i think NOT. so i went to a store yesterday, somewhere near my place, and opposite the stationary & printing shop, 5 blocks away from the pasar inanam, a few steps ahead from the lady that sells corn in cup (oh yummy), just around the corner of fei fei workshop, beside the store that i actually went, is a restaurant with an open bathroom. open = platforms of wood, place them in a cubic kind of shape, tada! a toilet. it doesn't even need a door. ew. it was just inches from the tables...that...u....actually.....eat....on. wow.

i......am an artist. i love art. everything i do is about art. art is me, & i am art. art is in my veins. art art art art. ART! from fARTing to watching bART simpsons, i savy art. i think, this particular word, is being vandalized. who wants to send me to jail?

KUIH SAPIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go to papar & buy me some original kuih sapit. & kuih kelapa. oh nyaman. tolong la. TOLONG LA!

*these few lines have been deleted by me for bowling reasons. i am not a grasshopper*

so, this dude says, "i'm going to asia!!! YEAAAAAHHH!!!!!" this other dude says, "cool! get me aishwarya rai's autograph or something will ya?" and then he replies, "what? you stupid? that's in India." so the other dude says, "yeah, ur going to asia right? that's why i..." the other dude butts in, "no man, i'm going to ASIA. i wanna watch kung fu pow pow POW!" thus, the dude can only say, ".................................................................." hahh. aint we lucky?

oh dear. i feel so scatterbrained right now, i actually feel like a roadkill. u know, when them chickens & what not running amock when cars are here and there. then *SCCRRRAAAAAAAAPPPEEEEEE* hah. yah.

pardon me. i dont like being angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bida ni ba rasa dia. emo2. ish. yuck. ptui. i spit at you.

i'll.....shut up now.

sweet & simple

1. cousin's house
   
2. interview went ok
   
3. forgot wallet, left penniless
4. last person on mind to show up & picked me up
5. the irony
6. home
   
7. slept
8. dreamed
9. woke up
10. thoughts
11. ......
12. ........
13. ........
14. ......
15. .......
16. ........
17. .......
18. ...........................................................
19. f*ck. i've been used.

thank u.

































kenapa bah. muka aku kena cop apa oh?

great.....now i have to choose between two again

Both are decent choices. Either two of them are fine; one's far away, one's right here in kk. One's ready to accept me, one's still undetermined. This one is in kk. The "judgement" day is tomorow. I don't even know what to say yet @_@

I want both of them! Of course, not only is it impossible, it's ridiculous :P Nothing good comes from being greedy. Don't forget that hannah.

It's still doesn't change the fact though, that I have to somehow let go of one. It's gonna take a toll on my conscience. I can feel it T_T I'll be feeling all guilty & whiny & complain-ny & everything-y. Argh. I hate choosing! =(

I want the one in kk but what if I'm not wanted? If I take the one that's far away, the DISTANCE man...I'm not kidding. FAR.

I guess I have to make a wise choice. That seems somewhat unlikely of the infamous hannah the childish nerd. But I have to try because I might end up losing both. Which is much worse. I need a little guidance & probably more advices from my VIPs. People, I need you T_T

Oh yeah, I'm talking bout job offers here by the way. Forgot to mention that. Tomorow's the interview with Imperial Hotel (kk). Whoopsie~

Pucker Up!

MWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

As normal human beings, we all have insecurities. Imperfections in every one of us indicates that we are mere God's creation, nothing more. To live, we can all try to overcome our insecurities; be it going for soul-healing sessions or to alter our imperfections. And make them beautiful in our own eyes. *sigh* These ladies, unfortunately, made themselves looking 10 times worst than what they already were. Astagaaaaaaa. Serious. Keep scrolling.



Silicon lips. Who's to blame? Yes, us women have every right to make ourselves pleasing in the eyes; but I think there is a limit to where these beautifying procedures can be too much. Right? A sky-rocketing profit for the surgeons or obsessions with beauty...which actually made this silicon lips era? @_@ Maybelline's lip gloss & Bed Head's lipsticks are fine!


Why would they want thick big lips anyways?? It baffles me. If I was given a free & paid for silicon lips surgery, I'd prefer Maggi =D AYAM FLAVOUR!!!! nyum nyum...uh oh. now I'm craving.


OHHH NOOOOO COURTNEY LOVE!!!!! T_T She was fine without the fake lips, she already had that pouty & full lips...


Okay. Surgery was supposed to make someone look better; like the iconic Norma Jean@Marilyn Monroe did. It did wonders for her & so many others. Botox, I can cope, but this is just seriously the oddest trend ever. Waaaarrrgghhhh!!!! This isn't flattering at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Didn't anybody tell them that???? Ok ok...who am I to question when they wanna go under the knife right, it's their choice. But but but but this is.....attractive in a different way. It sure attracts attention in definitely the WRONG way.


This..............................................is disturbing @_@



Dude, you look like a DUDE. I am so glad that this insane trend isn't conquering where I live. It would be weird looking at people around me that has these kinda lips. Let alone people I know TT________TT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! *nightmare*


I'M OUT OF WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Appreciating & accepting yourself is very important isn't it?

i like to explain every single thing bit by bit especially if it has something to do with my blog, from its name to my post's date's font's color

i made changes. =D gee, that was so not obvious wasn't it?

raaawwwwkkk....!!!!

dude, do not shake the bottle. seriously.

being nice really just gives u issues huh? woookay.

u know how my post usually starts with stuff like,

"Im feeling kind of............"

"It's just so sad................"

"Im so angry that............."

"Im stressed out......."

"Syam is so hot........"

oops.



that last sentence.....probably was the first time i write it here =D

couldn't resist LMAO!!




nakal! :P *distracted for a good 10 minutes*







ERHEM.


i think i've mentioned it before too, when trying to not be a pain in someone's ass, it brings pain into ur own ass. T_T aye, sad but true. that seems to be like a theme for my life. im cursed. for a whole lifetime.

i have like a trivial & complicated issue with a certain someone whom i do not wanna mention. i wanna forget the whole thing, we're supposed to be close, heck, we're flesh & blood. but, that person dissapointed & hurt me so badly, i couldn't even talk it out with him/her. *i wanna keep this person anonymous.*

i've wrote about this person before in my previous posts. and i kept how i felt & my thoughts to myself as it feels disgusting even on my tounge to talk about it. I REALLY CAN'T! that indifferent face & nonchalant behaviour really from him/her puts me down. that person knew what he/she had done to me but it seems like he/she doesn't care.

seeing as how talking won't get anywhere anyways, i tried to swallow everything & forget about it. but when something so strong is bottled up in u, it is bound to leak its way out of ur heart. i am human nonetheless. i do have feelings.

so, that person went & did some things that really2 pisses me off & those kept emotions of mine arised. if it hasn't anything to do with what happened in the past, its okay. the thing is, it HAS something to do with it. undoubtedly, i guess that person really does not understand what im going thru. =(

penat. really penat with this. im tired of compromising. with me refusing to not come clean with u, im doing u one BIG FAT FAVOUR. im sparing u the guilt that u should've felt due to ur own actions. im burdening my own self carrying this heavy bottle containing of ur wrong doings to me, so shouldn't it be like a silent mutual thing? u r the MATURE ONE.

so dude...................do not shake the bottle. seriously.