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mama: so have u capitalized on ur camera?
me: hah?
mama: have u made money out of ur camera?
me: (rasa macam ada dinosaur pijak jantung)









me: er....no....

I'm just bored =P

This is gonna be one perfect lazy weekend =D I don't wanna clean up my room, I do not wanna sort out my laundry, I do not wanna get out of bed, I don't wanna do anything I just wanna laaaaaaaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee around before its monday =D YES! though my room is a bit of a pigsty but it's ok i can close my eyes while lazing around u know that's not a problem xD

wait wait...errrmmmm...do I have anything interesting to say *thinks*

OH. haha. Well, someone apparently questions whether I am lonely. Because I have no boyfriend xD hahahhha. INTERESTING =P She's a friend of my friend's and...i met her only once? only once, where during that time i beat her badly in a board game HAHA.

She just added me in fb & went judging me from my profile. C'mon man that's not fair! My friend told me that she asked a lot of these questions like "is hannah lonely napa dia teda boyfriend dia teda kawan ka teda org mau dia ni kan blah blah blah" -_-"

I didn't go online for 2 weeks plus. of course la my profile looks miserable -_-" and what's with this mentality where u are automatically lonely if you're boyfriendless? Is it really necessary to have a boyfriend all the time? Don't i at least have a choice?

My choice is, a dude who will treat me like im the queen of england. untill i find that dude, i choose to be single =P and i cannot be lonely...how can i if i'm awesome? =D

So some girls (& boys, i know who u r ;p) are laughing at my singleness. but i seriously dont have any reasons to mind. I dont need to prove u wrong too. Its not like i dont mingle u know HAHA ;P pandai laaa aku mau jaga love life aku sendiri ;P

tgkla ba my previous posts. kalau nda pasal lelaki, pasal lelaaaaaaaaki ja =P its BORING! it should be about me for a change =D ur own good self must come first before others :D kan2 :D agreed? :D agreed! :D

HELL YEAH ITS A PERFECT WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


do i make my myself clear now? ;P

My Recipe to being Fabulous

boleh? GAHAHA!! im lacking sleep & i only had one miserable cupcake. for breakfast & lunch.

1. Comparing yourself with others is a sin, because it means you are insulting yourself. You might blind yourself from your God-given talents & potential if u do.

2. So, people talk behind your back. Let them say what they want as long as its about U baby ahahaahhahaha things like this make u famous. seriously :P

3. Stares count more than Kg's. If i ate 10 lambchops and still getting some attention (omg i cant believe im saying this), i have nothing to worry about *flips hair*

4. Looks can be deceiving. U can too, if u know what i mean ):D effective when handling people you don't fancy much :P (OMG!)

5. (Bad) Boys are equivalent to manure. Enough said :P

6. Weird is the new black. INDIVIDUALITY!

7. Criticism is good. Gives you the chance to prove people wrong ;D

too bad i only came up with 7 :P

bulih saya complain panjang-panjang? =D

saya nda suka nda kena paham. ko ckap bahasa melayu sama orang melayu yang paham melayu dia BULIH-BULIH nda paham.

tapi bab memutar belit terer pulak. macam sial =P

saya juga nda suka kena psycho. sebab aku senang kena psycho. dammit =P ko rasa ko mau meluahkan jiwa raga la kunun kan trus ko kena tanya soalan2 bonus. ko nda mau marah, trus ko jadi bingung. trus ko rasa bodoh ni jap. trus, selepas setengah jam, ko pikir balik. NAPA AKU PLA MINTA MAAF TADI??

menci -_-" berapa perkataan suda ni? cukup syarat la kali kan. aku puas hati suda. ok bleh tdur =P ish, benci ai -_-"

i need to stop thinking wat other people would think wen i say what i think wen im thinking

i dont think i've...ever really been that honest wen it comes to blogging. maybe a few times but there is this boundary, or maybe a mental block, that wenever i start typing i'd start thinking,

"would people think this is cool?"

=P

and if not that, i'd start monologuing as if im presenting something in english class. and would use paragraphs upon paragraphs to explain a simple thing.

example,

the oddly murky science of how the planet on where we stand called earth has brought drop upon drop of condensed water indefinitely made me feel saddened.

which just means its raining and i hate it. sorta like dis. minus the paragraphs la =P

i guess it is a problem =P *shrugs* then i need a new blog ehehehe to start FRESH! ohh thinking of the old posts....OOOOHHHHHHHH....no.

Empathy.

Before speaking of your own misery, listen to others' first.

You may have it bad, but other people can too, in fact they could actually be going through the SAME thing that you're going through.

Don't be so hasty in thinking that you are the only one suffering. And you sure as heck can't clear your conscience, i don't know what's causing you that guilt, by justifying that YOU WENT THROUGH WORST. So, what I went through, doesn't matter? I still suffered. What am I supposed to do with that feeling?

Sooner or later, it'll make me want to shut you OUT.

some morning rants :D

Which part of NO did he not understand? As far as I know, Sabahans DO NOT want the friggin' Coal Plant in Lahad Datu. Or a majority of us don't, at least. Why went on with it? If you want it so much, why not just build it somewhere else? If it can't be built elsewhere, why won't you just NOT build it? There's only two things I see from this whole thing;

No 1: He thinks Sabahans are stupid & aren't capable of thinking for their own selves.

No 2: We're loyal; so they're treating us like dogs.

Prove me wrong there Mr PM Sir.

Good Morning Chow Kit!

Yay! im now in KL doing some last minute raya shopping with the familia. we're supposed to do something else here too, something i didn't pay attention to...& i dont know the heck what... *mamai yg amat*

first off, I MISS HIM!!!!!!! oh but...i need my friend elle to slap some senses into me. loving a taken dude will get u heck shitload of bad bad karma. y? Y?? napa mesti tesuka yg ada gf. im being honest. I NEED HELP. Not only do i now look like a homewrecker, curly hair & ol xD, now i like people's bfs???????????? but i do miss him. shit.

2ndly, i am now staying at cititel express at chow kit road, jln tar or something. im telling ya, dis place kan. haaaaiiiissssseeeeeeehhhh. i woke up to the sound of a friggin gunshot, got up, looked out the window to check & heard another gunshot (?!?!???!) gila. 15th floor i couldnt see anything unless im superman. punya main GHETTO. but im safe here on the 15th floor hehe.

3rdly, yeah. imma gonna meet some bitches in kl YEAH!!!!!! cant wait!!!!!!! but i miss home uwaaaaaa. & my besties & my cuzzies UWWWWAAAAAAA!!!! nda pa, nda lama hehe..im gonna get breakfast now. yesterday was a LOOOONNNNNG day. babai.

I may be an old soul, but I don't have to be 38 years old biologically. T_T

Uh oh. Deep shit people. I checked my bmi & all recently, my body fats are considered obese (i blame the belly dancing) & my age......friggin' 38. k. 38. DAMN.

how? why? when? why? WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!

i guess i need to do healthy things. like..............*nope nobody's home* i have migrane i'll google them up later :D

ok, some things totally unrelated to my un-intelligent title. i guess i'll be holding on to dis phrase religiously now; its MIND OVER MATTER :D

shit happens, shit will happen, shit happened, & shits will happen again and again; but if you can control the reins of ur own emotions, u r dubbed UNTOUCHABLE. =) i hate the fact that mean people exist. dammit they do. i have learned now if u bend & twist ur own mind, what mattered before wont anymore =P

there's dis dude right. he yelled at me & humiliated me like im some kind of pig. well, i didnt have to do anything & then before long, minta kesian sama saya. wtf. stupid asshole. ko sda kasi malu diri ko, aku nda payah buat apa2 pun xD

whatever. im just...thank God im still breathing, alive & well xD mind over matter right. the matter is, im obese. & old. but my mind says, lantaklah. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHHAHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P

to amy's bruneian stalker ^___^

Dear whats-ur-face,

1. ur not worth it, but seriously, im not as nice as amy =)

2. nobody touches my best friends.

3. bring a dictionary bitch, i dont want u to miss one word. it'll spoil the fun dontcha think? dictionary plz u whore dont make me translate.

4. u mess with the wrong people darl


erhem! sadang ta tu pukiiiiiiiiiii ko maki kawan aku babiiiiiiiiiii. wat? cant handle a bit of sarcasm? feeling threatened maybe? HAHA figures. cock-sucking pigs usually feel dat way. and ur one =)

maybe ur just upset. u got din, but ur so damn worried dat ur pussy wont sell to him anymore right? dats y u stalked amy for the past 2 FUCKING YEARS RIGHT? do u know how much u'd gain if u actually invested into something for like 2 years? bodo o kau. i gotta give it to you...you are, by far, the most pathetic person i've known. kau juga la HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! haihh...entertaining oh kau sial. syok aku ketawa.

look, we dont CARE bout u or din, we DONT give a damn, heck, u guys can just fuck each other all day long WE DONT FUCKING CARE!! NEITHER DOES AMY!!! move forward plz bitch. ur so psychotic its hilarious.

let me clarify one thing; compare to u n amy, of course, ur love life deserves more kudos. amy's relationships are like a single rice compare to u. of course. ko bagi puki ko ma. SEPA BULI LAWAN? lelaki mana nda mau. amy, on the other hand, chose NOT to. so u just go ahead and be proud of the fact that u indeed, have a boyfriend, have a flourishing love life compare to amy, coz ur simply A WHORE. k?

lawyer? really? under what Act? r u some kind of moron? lemme give u law lessons k. people from different countries/continents/sometimes states cannot simply put a restraining order/sue/etc from each other. only prime ministers/presidents/international law enforcer/etc can. r u one? no...not with that brain u cant. astaga tulung la punya budu ko ni aku nda tahan oh kimak. dont make me laugh more than i already did. and, if u somehow by miracle could afford a lawyer, and able to have a legal battle with amy, DONT. u'll lose. sepa maki sepa dulu, ha kuyuk? ko yg start BUDU u'll be the one that'll pay the compensation BUDU!

hah...anitah...mun budu payah....satu lagi ah aku explain. dont try to play god. whats with the pussy threats? "dont blame me for what'll happen to ur family"? syiriknyaaaaaa tulung la. look. its not like amy cursed your family & future generations; or things dat could be related. she just gave ur bf, which is her EX BF mind u, a simple MSG. plz. tuluuuuuung la.

oh ok. so now u wanna attack me? mulut aku kurang ajar? memang. semua org benci aku. so? aku sundal. gatal. mcm amy juga. so? i have no love life, as i noe, u stalked my blog too, so? aku p kacau bf org? SO? kau pun HELLO? u dont know me bitch. im standing up for amy sooo..now i think u wana call us lesbians. right? SO? u can curse me ALL U WANT. o ya. dont even try to create conflict between me and amy so we'll go against each other. dont even think about it. malas ta ku ingau. ur not the one who's giving me my salary. cakap ja laaaaa apa2 kau mau. it doesnt change the fact that ur stupid. and ur english is broken ur embarassing to the brunei clan. seriously. bikin malu oh kau.

haaah...ur a waste of time, and u have no friends. kesian. dont mess with a girl who has a hotelier for a best friend bitch. big mistake. so i bid u farewell, u have things to say ur welcome to drop a comment here no biggie =) if din the pussy has things to say he can write it here as well =) if ur friends wana say things too, boleh ba kalau ko! n ur family? be my guest. i'll show them how u cursed amy just for a single msg =) u started dis =) its been fun =) msg me in fb, browse me anywhere u want I DONT CARE. saya tidak takut dengan orang bodoh. PIGI MAMPUS.

mari membuat perubahan

I WANNA CHANGE SOMETHING SOMEDAY SOMEHOW!!!!!! i really have dis bad, BADA habit i really wanna change.

MENGUMPAT. xD

no laughing matter people, sometimes i dont even realize that im bitching about someone, IT SEEMS LIKE IM BREATHING! NORMAL!! NATURAL!!! T____T tia mau. the worst thing is, coz i dont think, i dont realize wat it might do to others or my own self. @___@

& its not easy for the female species to admit it xD makanan kami ba tu!

but i wont make that an excuse, from now on, every time i feel like i have some good story-mory worthy of an oscar, i'd imagine all my fav guys giving me these looks










no babies i dont wanna make u angry xD hahhh sajuk sikit hati ^^ to whom it may concern, its ok dat u dont remember my name coz it isnt pretty, & the fact that u announced it in front of everybody. my lips will remain shut xD

Not good.

I cant handle anything too intense at the moment. & how i'm feeling right now is as if i just jumped off the Statue of Liberty, dropping into the sea, being pulled by fishermen, mistaken for a shark, sent to Japan to be sushi, sold to a circus, put into an aquarium for a mermaid show, married to a 5 armed man, stolen then become PA to Madonna. That's how i feel now. Messed up, confusing, crazy, makes no sense, & just.....ridiculous. I feel ridiculous.

Many Many Monologues

since i just recently changed my blog's name, i figured kononlaa letak picts & stuff to get theme all done & complete & stuff *punya merapu










& that's all =)

i never learn xD

ok. nda buli tgk mr aquarius sda. klu nda mati aku kena bunuh mrs dia xDDDDDDDDD oh well at least it was the best eye candy i had ^____^ bersih sda mata, puas cuci xPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

itu sahaja. for futher details u can email me at imanidiot@slapme.com

not another aquarius?

bah mati. MATI. i tell you. no wonder la!! kindettttttttttt...

i always fall for yg bangsat punya guys hehe...thank god that this time around, im not smarter, though im not getting dumber to not notice the destructive path im going to. & dat's simply liking a wrong guy. whew~ aquarius, leo, & cancer, main jauh2. don't spoil my moment now that i feel like gisele bunchen xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD tidak kelakar itu, bukan? bah britney la...or megan fox? mana2 la yang pinting it feels good to not have sum1 saying "buat apa weekend ni? jum dating" or "i want u to come to blah blah" time2 i have plans for myself.i really hope i can keep my head in the game! the prize, SELF EMPOWERMENT! ;P buuuuuuuut...buliii la ba kan tgk2 tu budak sekali sekala...sikit2 ja la HAHAHAHAHA xP teda pendirian btul

cukup untuk buat 12,652 koloni bed bugs

punya main lama nda blogging xD bangsaaaattt PNYA LAMA HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!! *screams frantically*



kindet lama ni ba kindet...kindeeeetttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



.......................jadi? mau start dari mana ni?



daku....masi single. masi 58 kilogram. masi memakai panty2 yg sama ketika menulis post2 yg lepas. masi offside. masi blum drive. masi blum ada lesen ^____~ cun la hidup ku ini hehehehe

first off, i think i should please my number one blog fan.....ME!! bahahah ya la sepa lg, me myself & i la ba ish~

im not just saying this but A LOT i tell you, A LOT..like a FATLOAD MEXICAN BURRITO lot-ness happened in this past 4 months..i got a new job, surprise surprise i got dumped *yawn*, had one too many fun nights sampai paingan & tepilai2 kapla, & like....100 PMS outrage? xD bahahahahaha...typical of a 23 year old la kan.....2......3......ye..ar.....old.........




CRAP I'M OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah...i got old....hehe....

erhem....im still 16 at heart...

talking bout ur job doesnt make u old...rite? nda pa la haha! im currently so content with my job, feel like wearing a promenade hotel t-shirt or something xD might as well right? before i start complaining? hehe i learned a lot more than i did from NovoHELL, there were a lot of these lightbulb moments ya know? im not smart so that considers as an oscar win for me..muehehehe....buuuuuut, u cant get ahead of yourself, and be up in the clouds...i must not think i know everything i must not think i know everything i must not become an idiot that just puts me back in square one~ but life stopped bullying me for now ^^ whew~ despite everything that happened, i managed~ =) ok la, i was overwhelmed at first, i was all over the place...i tell u...macam ayam kena putung kepala lari2 beehh...

other things that happened was with my lil bro. he's coming of age and well, those damn hormons. jeez. but nothing to worry about. nothing like a comunist-hitler-medieval-torturing-style wouldn't work towards him xD really. i was scary. xD

aaaannndd...hmmmm...besides that...nothing too important to say now, will sambung later...its good be a zom-blogg-ie once more xD

NEXT TIIIMMMMEEE!!!! BYYYYEEEBYEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

oh another day

TITANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im watching titanic...titanic....is awesome.....ok........sikit nangis....sikit la hehe....

I LIKE THIS NEW TEMPLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but....it has no comments in its html T______T ngapa kian....well it doesnt matter anyways =D i wudve had FUN today if not for this selfish retard that ruined everything...dude...if u wanna go poop, u don't have to drag us all in the goddamn bathroom.....figuratively......ARGH!!!!! NDA DAPAT TGK WAYANG!!!!!! aku mau kuar sbb xmau tension....sama ja tension dia...bangsat...however, regardless, kuar with my cousins are always fun xD a bunch of people who just wanna laugh the whole day without a care in the world ^________________^

ok now, the lesson i learned today, is to not let people take the best of u....HOORAY!!!!!!! yeah...and to not let people fog ur own judgment...everyone is entitled to opinions...lemme keep mine, n u keep urs...win-win situation nobody loses EVERYONE'S HAPPY! =))

haaaaah...im tired of always trying to understand people, be the one who always compromises...y couldn't it be like a give n take thing kan2? its time i have my space, with people who only care about DOTA n MU hehe =D ive done my part, now im just a burden so back with the win-win thingy, im sticking to my own ground, n i promise i wont question or critisize urs..im fair!!! and lovely..ngeeeeeeeeeeee

ok now cinemax is playing this hardcore thriller/horror movie.....MUST WATCH...bbbyyyyeeeeeee!!!!

this'll be quick

HOORAAAAYYY!!!! broadband ku amat2 ok sda muahahahaha...im back to being an internet junkie la ni, fb 24 hours a day, changing my blogger templates, dont forget the whining, and discovering more weird things on youtube HAHA!!

o yaa speaking of weird, last nite, the person i never wud've thought to contact me from kuantan, EVER, actually called me (WARGGH!!) err...the only thing i knew about him was probably the fact dat his mustache grows faster on the left side of his mouth...other than that, ZERO. it was weird....

oooohhhhh and hooray for my boyfriend coz he didn't listen to me when i told him to do his assignment on sunday now he's stuck with 3, and it has to be submitted tomorow! not a single one is done!!! HOORAYYY!!! akakakakaka xD

oh question, how would you react if someone told you that he/she is so popular in sabah?

hahahahahahahahahaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok2 last one....make up......I NEED A SMUDGIE!!!! ='( i cannot live without smoky eyes.......i feel like an artery vein in my body has been cut & now i'm dying bleeding to death......dats how bad i need a smudge tool......hehehe....

i'll probably make a new post again after dis heheeeeeeeeeee....bye for now

stubborn & spoiled right down to the core (whoopsie~)

MIA! MIA! MIA! MIA! MIA!!!!!!!!!!!! i was mia for quite a long time. so the woes, complaints & whining will be extra long from now on xD to cover up all those lost times of course lol xD before elaborating the numerous events that happened in my life during the time i was gone, i just couldn't get this off my chest for the moment. here goes.

i.......i...i.i.i.i.i.i.i....i......i...i..i...i....do not have all the explainations for my behaviour sometimes. i might have an idea why, at times, but, it still does not fully justify wat i did. my outbursts, meltdowns, & temper can be...well...overwhelming.

i always wanna improve my life, & myself. if i feel that im a moron, i'd change till i dont feel like a moron. if i feel like i live the life of a moron, i'd improve watever the heck it is dats moron-ish in my life till it seems pretty ok to me. make sense? ok. now for the main course.

i come across as someone passive since forever! yes. ok. alright. mbah. buli ba. it gives an impression that anything goes for me. when actually, NO ba. so my life gets pretty bad after all this. i attracted pests. & sent out wrong impressions & wat not. so i dont wanna be like dis anymore. i dont wanna be miserable.

so im stamping my foot on the ground; i must get what i want! when i dont, IT ISNT ACCEPTABLE! i want what i want, if it isnt wat i want then i wont bother! it'll be a big NO all the way!

so yeah with that it works. it actually works & i do get my way & stuff. but....doesnt dis make me a moron? xD

haiihh...i win some but i lose some. in the midst of making things right for me, i became very2 stubborn & spoiled~ whoops~ an...accident u might say xD hehe...he...no dis isnt funny...i feel that my outbursts is the inner me trying to fight for wat i want that ive kinda lost my moral compass for a moment there. cant i get my way without all the stubborness & spoiledness?

cant think! mental block! vocab drought! bye2.

The Expressive Words of She Who Carried Me for 9 Months

Grrr i can only remember these 3 for now....my mom is the best xD

"You've always had something against my nose!"

:: when, im not sure. what i'm sure of is that it was damn cute ^^ she was driving, my lil bro ami & myself bought some expensive almost-expired buns at a bakery we shouldn't have gone to. that aside, she asked for a piece. she made a turn and thus the bun went straight to her nose xD n accused ami for having a grudge against her nose xD


"Kunun..."

:: finally, after 10 years, she got the chance to study again. the second opportunity that she never imagined would ever happen. words can't describe this elation, this feeling of supreme achievement, it was happiness at the highest level possible. as she picked up her pen, this was the only thing she managed to say xD


"Let me coil into this blanket."

:: Upon hearing something she unpleasing to her ears. & she did actually coil xD