insomnia & solitude...NOT GOOD

dammit...y did i have the urge to wake up after only sleeping for an hour...AN HOUR...as far as i remembered, i even sacrificed my "super duper supper" to go to dreamland, including the regular stay-ups with my younger siblings to find out what really happened to sasuke after he chased after the wind thingy group...did gaara became not kawaii anymore? hooh dat arm...did naruto & the rest got the chance to catch up wit sasuke?....

hoookay. its a habit of mine. i follow lights. :D :D :D :D :D

erhem. so i skipped supper & watching naruto till the morn, my two ultimatest syiokest favouritest activity of the day ever, & end up waking up to myself & dis laptop, while everyone's asleep & left me alone >( to make it worse, i cannot go back to sleep *whines*

not fun. not fun at all. sepa suruuuuh. uwaa. my comrades (my adik-adik) followed suit to their general (me) as they found me sleeping, they did the same too. u guys were loyal, so i'll forgive u T________________________T

my optimistic side tells me that dis isn't all dat bad, besides, the evil cockroaches do not seem keen to flying up my head; instead crawling up & down my cabinet. probably coz i had previously worn expired hair spray. hehe. accidently. booyah!! 1-0 for me vs mr. roach.

this situation though can really get u paranoid at times. JEEZ!! the stuff dat comes to ur head!!! i read ms. inden's post (ngehe) & i came across a word dat sent a jolt to my otak right here & probably added raisins to the fruitcake,

" CLOSET "

oh dear. oh dear oh dear oh dear. & so, having quite a collection of skeletons & who knows what in my own beloved closet, they came out to play =/

thank goodness im still in an indifferent mood now, i can look at them skeletons calmly & in proturberance. *sigh* i realized now more than ever dat having dat big of a closet have turned me into a berangin person. cant sweep stuff under the rug all the time hannah.

i realized dat i've turned into an unpredictable person where i keep too much stuff & do not know what to do with them but put on a happy face. 24 hours of 7 days of a week in 1 month. all year long.

& during unexpected times where i suddenly think about it, i burst, not considering the people around me at times.

mind u, its not dat i intentionally do not wanna tell, its my nature. its been my nature since i was born; to not be someone who verbalizes well. i think i've improved over the years. i do have the most AMAYYYZAZINGG people around me, my best friends & family & anggota; but....i have yet to duel with my own demons. goodness. im starting to scare myself :D :D :D :D

& i think its this absurd, disgusting, absolutely not cool KEEP-SILENT-PLEASE culture dat exist here in my environment, dat has been contributing a lot to my uncool condition. seriously, ur cramping my style.

thus, in conclusion, this is what not being able to sleep & the only one awake can do to me, occasionally~ still not a good combination. its eating cheesecake & drinking Cola at the same time. can u imagine what u'll barf out? MUAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! hehe~

i'll retire for now, from dis post at least, there's a chance dat i'll probably write another post. ngehehe. untill then, i owe a dance to dis skeletons-coming-out-of-the-closet feeling. & mr. roach's approaching my territory. fast. *grabs newspaper*