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I WANNA CHANGE SOMETHING SOMEDAY SOMEHOW!!!!!! i really have dis bad, BADA habit i really wanna change.

MENGUMPAT. xD

no laughing matter people, sometimes i dont even realize that im bitching about someone, IT SEEMS LIKE IM BREATHING! NORMAL!! NATURAL!!! T____T tia mau. the worst thing is, coz i dont think, i dont realize wat it might do to others or my own self. @___@

& its not easy for the female species to admit it xD makanan kami ba tu!

but i wont make that an excuse, from now on, every time i feel like i have some good story-mory worthy of an oscar, i'd imagine all my fav guys giving me these looks










no babies i dont wanna make u angry xD hahhh sajuk sikit hati ^^ to whom it may concern, its ok dat u dont remember my name coz it isnt pretty, & the fact that u announced it in front of everybody. my lips will remain shut xD

Not good.

I cant handle anything too intense at the moment. & how i'm feeling right now is as if i just jumped off the Statue of Liberty, dropping into the sea, being pulled by fishermen, mistaken for a shark, sent to Japan to be sushi, sold to a circus, put into an aquarium for a mermaid show, married to a 5 armed man, stolen then become PA to Madonna. That's how i feel now. Messed up, confusing, crazy, makes no sense, & just.....ridiculous. I feel ridiculous.

Many Many Monologues

since i just recently changed my blog's name, i figured kononlaa letak picts & stuff to get theme all done & complete & stuff *punya merapu










& that's all =)

i never learn xD

ok. nda buli tgk mr aquarius sda. klu nda mati aku kena bunuh mrs dia xDDDDDDDDD oh well at least it was the best eye candy i had ^____^ bersih sda mata, puas cuci xPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

itu sahaja. for futher details u can email me at imanidiot@slapme.com

not another aquarius?

bah mati. MATI. i tell you. no wonder la!! kindettttttttttt...

i always fall for yg bangsat punya guys hehe...thank god that this time around, im not smarter, though im not getting dumber to not notice the destructive path im going to. & dat's simply liking a wrong guy. whew~ aquarius, leo, & cancer, main jauh2. don't spoil my moment now that i feel like gisele bunchen xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD tidak kelakar itu, bukan? bah britney la...or megan fox? mana2 la yang pinting it feels good to not have sum1 saying "buat apa weekend ni? jum dating" or "i want u to come to blah blah" time2 i have plans for myself.i really hope i can keep my head in the game! the prize, SELF EMPOWERMENT! ;P buuuuuuuut...buliii la ba kan tgk2 tu budak sekali sekala...sikit2 ja la HAHAHAHAHA xP teda pendirian btul

cukup untuk buat 12,652 koloni bed bugs

punya main lama nda blogging xD bangsaaaattt PNYA LAMA HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!! *screams frantically*



kindet lama ni ba kindet...kindeeeetttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



.......................jadi? mau start dari mana ni?



daku....masi single. masi 58 kilogram. masi memakai panty2 yg sama ketika menulis post2 yg lepas. masi offside. masi blum drive. masi blum ada lesen ^____~ cun la hidup ku ini hehehehe

first off, i think i should please my number one blog fan.....ME!! bahahah ya la sepa lg, me myself & i la ba ish~

im not just saying this but A LOT i tell you, A LOT..like a FATLOAD MEXICAN BURRITO lot-ness happened in this past 4 months..i got a new job, surprise surprise i got dumped *yawn*, had one too many fun nights sampai paingan & tepilai2 kapla, & like....100 PMS outrage? xD bahahahahaha...typical of a 23 year old la kan.....2......3......ye..ar.....old.........




CRAP I'M OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah...i got old....hehe....

erhem....im still 16 at heart...

talking bout ur job doesnt make u old...rite? nda pa la haha! im currently so content with my job, feel like wearing a promenade hotel t-shirt or something xD might as well right? before i start complaining? hehe i learned a lot more than i did from NovoHELL, there were a lot of these lightbulb moments ya know? im not smart so that considers as an oscar win for me..muehehehe....buuuuuut, u cant get ahead of yourself, and be up in the clouds...i must not think i know everything i must not think i know everything i must not become an idiot that just puts me back in square one~ but life stopped bullying me for now ^^ whew~ despite everything that happened, i managed~ =) ok la, i was overwhelmed at first, i was all over the place...i tell u...macam ayam kena putung kepala lari2 beehh...

other things that happened was with my lil bro. he's coming of age and well, those damn hormons. jeez. but nothing to worry about. nothing like a comunist-hitler-medieval-torturing-style wouldn't work towards him xD really. i was scary. xD

aaaannndd...hmmmm...besides that...nothing too important to say now, will sambung later...its good be a zom-blogg-ie once more xD

NEXT TIIIMMMMEEE!!!! BYYYYEEEBYEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

oh another day

TITANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im watching titanic...titanic....is awesome.....ok........sikit nangis....sikit la hehe....

I LIKE THIS NEW TEMPLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but....it has no comments in its html T______T ngapa kian....well it doesnt matter anyways =D i wudve had FUN today if not for this selfish retard that ruined everything...dude...if u wanna go poop, u don't have to drag us all in the goddamn bathroom.....figuratively......ARGH!!!!! NDA DAPAT TGK WAYANG!!!!!! aku mau kuar sbb xmau tension....sama ja tension dia...bangsat...however, regardless, kuar with my cousins are always fun xD a bunch of people who just wanna laugh the whole day without a care in the world ^________________^

ok now, the lesson i learned today, is to not let people take the best of u....HOORAY!!!!!!! yeah...and to not let people fog ur own judgment...everyone is entitled to opinions...lemme keep mine, n u keep urs...win-win situation nobody loses EVERYONE'S HAPPY! =))

haaaaah...im tired of always trying to understand people, be the one who always compromises...y couldn't it be like a give n take thing kan2? its time i have my space, with people who only care about DOTA n MU hehe =D ive done my part, now im just a burden so back with the win-win thingy, im sticking to my own ground, n i promise i wont question or critisize urs..im fair!!! and lovely..ngeeeeeeeeeeee

ok now cinemax is playing this hardcore thriller/horror movie.....MUST WATCH...bbbyyyyeeeeeee!!!!

this'll be quick

HOORAAAAYYY!!!! broadband ku amat2 ok sda muahahahaha...im back to being an internet junkie la ni, fb 24 hours a day, changing my blogger templates, dont forget the whining, and discovering more weird things on youtube HAHA!!

o yaa speaking of weird, last nite, the person i never wud've thought to contact me from kuantan, EVER, actually called me (WARGGH!!) err...the only thing i knew about him was probably the fact dat his mustache grows faster on the left side of his mouth...other than that, ZERO. it was weird....

oooohhhhh and hooray for my boyfriend coz he didn't listen to me when i told him to do his assignment on sunday now he's stuck with 3, and it has to be submitted tomorow! not a single one is done!!! HOORAYYY!!! akakakakaka xD

oh question, how would you react if someone told you that he/she is so popular in sabah?

hahahahahahahahahaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok2 last one....make up......I NEED A SMUDGIE!!!! ='( i cannot live without smoky eyes.......i feel like an artery vein in my body has been cut & now i'm dying bleeding to death......dats how bad i need a smudge tool......hehehe....

i'll probably make a new post again after dis heheeeeeeeeeee....bye for now

stubborn & spoiled right down to the core (whoopsie~)

MIA! MIA! MIA! MIA! MIA!!!!!!!!!!!! i was mia for quite a long time. so the woes, complaints & whining will be extra long from now on xD to cover up all those lost times of course lol xD before elaborating the numerous events that happened in my life during the time i was gone, i just couldn't get this off my chest for the moment. here goes.

i.......i...i.i.i.i.i.i.i....i......i...i..i...i....do not have all the explainations for my behaviour sometimes. i might have an idea why, at times, but, it still does not fully justify wat i did. my outbursts, meltdowns, & temper can be...well...overwhelming.

i always wanna improve my life, & myself. if i feel that im a moron, i'd change till i dont feel like a moron. if i feel like i live the life of a moron, i'd improve watever the heck it is dats moron-ish in my life till it seems pretty ok to me. make sense? ok. now for the main course.

i come across as someone passive since forever! yes. ok. alright. mbah. buli ba. it gives an impression that anything goes for me. when actually, NO ba. so my life gets pretty bad after all this. i attracted pests. & sent out wrong impressions & wat not. so i dont wanna be like dis anymore. i dont wanna be miserable.

so im stamping my foot on the ground; i must get what i want! when i dont, IT ISNT ACCEPTABLE! i want what i want, if it isnt wat i want then i wont bother! it'll be a big NO all the way!

so yeah with that it works. it actually works & i do get my way & stuff. but....doesnt dis make me a moron? xD

haiihh...i win some but i lose some. in the midst of making things right for me, i became very2 stubborn & spoiled~ whoops~ an...accident u might say xD hehe...he...no dis isnt funny...i feel that my outbursts is the inner me trying to fight for wat i want that ive kinda lost my moral compass for a moment there. cant i get my way without all the stubborness & spoiledness?

cant think! mental block! vocab drought! bye2.

The Expressive Words of She Who Carried Me for 9 Months

Grrr i can only remember these 3 for now....my mom is the best xD

"You've always had something against my nose!"

:: when, im not sure. what i'm sure of is that it was damn cute ^^ she was driving, my lil bro ami & myself bought some expensive almost-expired buns at a bakery we shouldn't have gone to. that aside, she asked for a piece. she made a turn and thus the bun went straight to her nose xD n accused ami for having a grudge against her nose xD


"Kunun..."

:: finally, after 10 years, she got the chance to study again. the second opportunity that she never imagined would ever happen. words can't describe this elation, this feeling of supreme achievement, it was happiness at the highest level possible. as she picked up her pen, this was the only thing she managed to say xD


"Let me coil into this blanket."

:: Upon hearing something she unpleasing to her ears. & she did actually coil xD