heish..

*sigh*

*sigh again*

*cant stop sighing*

wargh

u can see from my blog dat i am kinda lost n stuff...kan?

im here in kuantan...so now wat?
i feel so....sumthing but i dunno wat it is 0_o
aiyoo
where do i go from here?
im about to finish my dip n all
but i dunno wat 2 do after dat
urgh
bingung
i dont even know wat 2 write about
mcm ada bata ni ba d kepala
kin panas
is it coz i feel unachieved or sumthing?
is it...?
haihh
ntahla....


haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh....

BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH...

i just wrote sumthing

WORTHY TO PUT INTO AN ANGER MANAGEMENT PROGRAM

and the internet..........

dia pigi.......

disconnected.........

lps tu....

autosaved separuh ja......

aduuuuuuuuuuuuui.....

It Doesn't Matter Much Now, Coz I'm Better

ur at it again, i dont see any faith & signs dat show dat u believe in me.
little, little things dat give away ur thoughts of me & unfortunately wat u think of me
but dat's all senseless to me now
i know better now
i won't destruct myself just for something u can't see & u probably won't
i won't go back to square one where i was ignorant of everything as though i havn't lived & learn
because now,

dat's ur problem. u hav 2 deal wit it now.

i "did" my time. I've passed my test & aced it. erm, C+ la
xD

i wont b angry, i wont force u into a situation or try to persuade u or anything coz it's not ur time yet. untill u see it for urself. no grudge here, juz dat i can't do anything & i cant do everything as someone who's supposed to look out for u. dis is my silent truce. =)

Dear Kuantan,

Hello Kuantan. Mcm ko?

I'm going 2 set my foot on u in a few days now.

but there r sum requests wishes dat i ask of u before i actually go there.
alaa...

nda susah pun mau buat,

small thing onyyyyy,

its driving me CRAZY juz thinking of going 2 U,

nda tau lg la bila aku btul2 d sna.....

plz grant me my wishes

1. 1st, i ask u to be nice wit me. i dun want me
   getting no diseases, illness, flu, fever, apa2 la k? & since kuantan tu
   TERLALU BYK BAS, tell ur ministery 2 buy more bas la...klu nda pun, make a
   really2 comfortable bus stand. syok sket! namau ujan2 time aku p klas & go
   mild wit the wheather huh? it'll kill my sensitive skin
2. can u tell ur residents to b nice to me? man...i've kept pretty much to myself all dis time despite everything & i intend to keep it dat way. plz keep me uninvolved wit the senseless drama provided by girls dat is in serious need of a LIFE & boys dat can't find their d*cks. oops pardon me =) & did u notice? malapetaka still came to me. *sigh* it's hard being such a FABULOUS person. *sigh sigh sigh* i'm blessed enough here in KOTA KINABALU & yes, she's better than u in lots of ways, dat's juz the way it is, can't be helped la. for the moment, i wanna appreciate as much as i can wat i already have than seeking wat im missing. coz there's absolutely nothing dat i dont hav rite now. dont disrupt dat.
3. gosh. tell dat Shahputra College of mine to NOT make me go to a CERAMAH DISIPLIN coz my hair is BLONDE. i failed a paper but i also got a dlist 1nce. & coz of dat finally uitm melaka recognizes you. not me alone tho, zue & 2 other *ssholes. bless zue too. only. k?
4. ui. kasi besar la Mydin tu. payah btul mau beli sabun cuci kain. HARI2 FULL!!! NGAPA KIAN?!
5. O ya. Jalanraya yg otw p Teluk Cempedak tu. 2 thun setengah sudah. Nda pndai siap2. Bukan apa, cian ba tinguk. If dat road is finally fixed i promise u, I WILL INCREASE UR REVENUE DAMMIT!! i'll go to TC everyday for supper d McD.
6. OH!! how is it dat people i dont even noe gives me looks & stares of dislike? Sepa ba durang? tell them to leave me alone!!!!
7. And regarding my ex BOYO, i'd prefer it if he doesn't REMEMBER ME AT ALL. do watever u want...run him over wit a car, drop a building on him, break his crotch or watever la! till he gets permanent memory loss. such a waste of time if they drag me into their stupid feud. i hav nothing to do wit him or his friends AT ALL. tolong la.
8. o yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! shahputra students makin bzbody. fix dat.
9. u noe sumthing upset me really bad while i was there last semester. u noe wat happened.giv me the strength to tolerate wit it all & dont make me grow more hate in my heart as i am too angry already. a certain SHE still is clueless & does not understand me & wat i've been thru, even tho it all happened in front of her own TWO EYES. she still cudn't SEE. avoid me from heartbreak coz of her actions & selalu la kasi jatuh RM10 dri urg lain pnya wallet so dat i cud reload & call my loved ones before i became the worse of me again. dis cant be solved, & the only way i can handle dis is me TOLERATING SWALLOWING dat bitterness.
10. Hah! how u can help me tolerate dis is plz bring SYAM to u. he's a COMPLICATED character but he still holds dat piece of me dat i cant let go of yet. he gave me a lot of hard times but i guess for now he's kinda one of the only reason dat can make me happy at least during my stay. and again, no drama or chaos from pathetic people dat has nothing better to do than make me miserable. deyyy~ i want to meet Syam witout any stupid interruptions from stupid people.

Theeerrre...be my Santa coz I've been a Nice KiD!!! xD c'mon....i helped u wen the Malaysian Tourist Guide Council came....i always DANCED my *ss off everytime u had an important event...i never litter wen i was there!! i never stole anything...yeaaaaah badmouthed u a bit but always deliver anything dat was given to me & the benefit always goes to u. Please Kuantan, be nice to me. That's all i ask. Be nice to me.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AL-MUBARAK

Sudah tiba masanya untuk merayakan

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terhadap Bulan Ramadhan selepas sebulan berpuasa,

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