My Monologue

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2011-06-25T10:18:00.005+08:00

mama: so have u capitalized on ur camera?
me: hah?
mama: have u made money out of ur camera?
me: (rasa macam ada dinosaur pijak jantung)

me: er....no....

I'm just bored =P

2011-04-09T16:50:00.005+08:00

This is gonna be one perfect lazy weekend =D I don't wanna clean up my room, I do not wanna sort out my laundry, I do not wanna get out of bed, I don't wanna do anything I just wanna laaaaaaaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee around before its monday =D YES! though my room is a bit of a pigsty but it's ok i can close my eyes while lazing around u know that's not a problem xD

wait wait...errrmmmm...do I have anything interesting to say *thinks*

OH. haha. Well, someone apparently questions whether I am lonely. Because I have no boyfriend xD hahahhha. INTERESTING =P She's a friend of my friend's and...i met her only once? only once, where during that time i beat her badly in a board game HAHA.

She just added me in fb & went judging me from my profile. C'mon man that's not fair! My friend told me that she asked a lot of these questions like "is hannah lonely napa dia teda boyfriend dia teda kawan ka teda org mau dia ni kan blah blah blah" -_-"

I didn't go online for 2 weeks plus. of course la my profile looks miserable -_-" and what's with this mentality where u are automatically lonely if you're boyfriendless? Is it really necessary to have a boyfriend all the time? Don't i at least have a choice?

My choice is, a dude who will treat me like im the queen of england. untill i find that dude, i choose to be single =P and i cannot be lonely...how can i if i'm awesome? =D

So some girls (& boys, i know who u r ;p) are laughing at my singleness. but i seriously dont have any reasons to mind. I dont need to prove u wrong too. Its not like i dont mingle u know HAHA ;P pandai laaa aku mau jaga love life aku sendiri ;P

tgkla ba my previous posts. kalau nda pasal lelaki, pasal lelaaaaaaaaki ja =P its BORING! it should be about me for a change =D ur own good self must come first before others :D kan2 :D agreed? :D agreed! :D

HELL YEAH ITS A PERFECT WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

do i make my myself clear now? ;P

My Recipe to being Fabulous

2011-02-15T13:40:00.006+08:00

boleh? GAHAHA!! im lacking sleep & i only had one miserable cupcake. for breakfast & lunch.

1. Comparing yourself with others is a sin, because it means you are insulting yourself. You might blind yourself from your God-given talents & potential if u do.

2. So, people talk behind your back. Let them say what they want as long as its about U baby ahahaahhahaha things like this make u famous. seriously :P

3. Stares count more than Kg's. If i ate 10 lambchops and still getting some attention (omg i cant believe im saying this), i have nothing to worry about *flips hair*

4. Looks can be deceiving. U can too, if u know what i mean ):D effective when handling people you don't fancy much :P (OMG!)

5. (Bad) Boys are equivalent to manure. Enough said :P

6. Weird is the new black. INDIVIDUALITY!

7. Criticism is good. Gives you the chance to prove people wrong ;D

too bad i only came up with 7 :P

bulih saya complain panjang-panjang? =D

2011-01-10T23:17:00.005+08:00

saya nda suka nda kena paham. ko ckap bahasa melayu sama orang melayu yang paham melayu dia BULIH-BULIH nda paham.

tapi bab memutar belit terer pulak. macam sial =P

saya juga nda suka kena psycho. sebab aku senang kena psycho. dammit =P ko rasa ko mau meluahkan jiwa raga la kunun kan trus ko kena tanya soalan2 bonus. ko nda mau marah, trus ko jadi bingung. trus ko rasa bodoh ni jap. trus, selepas setengah jam, ko pikir balik. NAPA AKU PLA MINTA MAAF TADI??

menci -_-" berapa perkataan suda ni? cukup syarat la kali kan. aku puas hati suda. ok bleh tdur =P ish, benci ai -_-"

i need to stop thinking wat other people would think wen i say what i think wen im thinking

2011-01-08T19:37:00.004+08:00

i dont think i've...ever really been that honest wen it comes to blogging. maybe a few times but there is this boundary, or maybe a mental block, that wenever i start typing i'd start thinking,

"would people think this is cool?"

=P

and if not that, i'd start monologuing as if im presenting something in english class. and would use paragraphs upon paragraphs to explain a simple thing.

example,

the oddly murky science of how the planet on where we stand called earth has brought drop upon drop of condensed water indefinitely made me feel saddened.

which just means its raining and i hate it. sorta like dis. minus the paragraphs la =P

i guess it is a problem =P *shrugs* then i need a new blog ehehehe to start FRESH! ohh thinking of the old posts....OOOOHHHHHHHH....no.

Empathy.

2010-08-31T22:44:00.003+08:00

Before speaking of your own misery, listen to others' first.

You may have it bad, but other people can too, in fact they could actually be going through the SAME thing that you're going through.

Don't be so hasty in thinking that you are the only one suffering. And you sure as heck can't clear your conscience, i don't know what's causing you that guilt, by justifying that YOU WENT THROUGH WORST. So, what I went through, doesn't matter? I still suffered. What am I supposed to do with that feeling?

Sooner or later, it'll make me want to shut you OUT.

some morning rants :D

2010-08-08T10:36:00.003+08:00

Which part of NO did he not understand? As far as I know, Sabahans DO NOT want the friggin' Coal Plant in Lahad Datu. Or a majority of us don't, at least. Why went on with it? If you want it so much, why not just build it somewhere else? If it can't be built elsewhere, why won't you just NOT build it? There's only two things I see from this whole thing;

No 1: He thinks Sabahans are stupid & aren't capable of thinking for their own selves.

No 2: We're loyal; so they're treating us like dogs.

Prove me wrong there Mr PM Sir.

Good Morning Chow Kit!

2010-08-07T09:21:00.002+08:00

Yay! im now in KL doing some last minute raya shopping with the familia. we're supposed to do something else here too, something i didn't pay attention to...& i dont know the heck what... *mamai yg amat*

first off, I MISS HIM!!!!!!! oh but...i need my friend elle to slap some senses into me. loving a taken dude will get u heck shitload of bad bad karma. y? Y?? napa mesti tesuka yg ada gf. im being honest. I NEED HELP. Not only do i now look like a homewrecker, curly hair & ol xD, now i like people's bfs???????????? but i do miss him. shit.

2ndly, i am now staying at cititel express at chow kit road, jln tar or something. im telling ya, dis place kan. haaaaiiiissssseeeeeeehhhh. i woke up to the sound of a friggin gunshot, got up, looked out the window to check & heard another gunshot (?!?!???!) gila. 15th floor i couldnt see anything unless im superman. punya main GHETTO. but im safe here on the 15th floor hehe.

3rdly, yeah. imma gonna meet some bitches in kl YEAH!!!!!! cant wait!!!!!!! but i miss home uwaaaaaa. & my besties & my cuzzies UWWWWAAAAAAA!!!! nda pa, nda lama hehe..im gonna get breakfast now. yesterday was a LOOOONNNNNG day. babai.

I may be an old soul, but I don't have to be 38 years old biologically. T_T

2010-08-02T19:52:00.003+08:00

Uh oh. Deep shit people. I checked my bmi & all recently, my body fats are considered obese (i blame the belly dancing) & my age......friggin' 38. k. 38. DAMN.

how? why? when? why? WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!

i guess i need to do healthy things. like..............*nope nobody's home* i have migrane i'll google them up later :D

ok, some things totally unrelated to my un-intelligent title. i guess i'll be holding on to dis phrase religiously now; its MIND OVER MATTER :D

shit happens, shit will happen, shit happened, & shits will happen again and again; but if you can control the reins of ur own emotions, u r dubbed UNTOUCHABLE. =) i hate the fact that mean people exist. dammit they do. i have learned now if u bend & twist ur own mind, what mattered before wont anymore =P

there's dis dude right. he yelled at me & humiliated me like im some kind of pig. well, i didnt have to do anything & then before long, minta kesian sama saya. wtf. stupid asshole. ko sda kasi malu diri ko, aku nda payah buat apa2 pun xD

whatever. im just...thank God im still breathing, alive & well xD mind over matter right. the matter is, im obese. & old. but my mind says, lantaklah. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHHAHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P

to amy's bruneian stalker ^___^

2010-06-15T22:14:00.003+08:00

Dear whats-ur-face,

1. ur not worth it, but seriously, im not as nice as amy =)

2. nobody touches my best friends.

3. bring a dictionary bitch, i dont want u to miss one word. it'll spoil the fun dontcha think? dictionary plz u whore dont make me translate.

4. u mess with the wrong people darl

erhem! sadang ta tu pukiiiiiiiiiii ko maki kawan aku babiiiiiiiiiii. wat? cant handle a bit of sarcasm? feeling threatened maybe? HAHA figures. cock-sucking pigs usually feel dat way. and ur one =)

maybe ur just upset. u got din, but ur so damn worried dat ur pussy wont sell to him anymore right? dats y u stalked amy for the past 2 FUCKING YEARS RIGHT? do u know how much u'd gain if u actually invested into something for like 2 years? bodo o kau. i gotta give it to you...you are, by far, the most pathetic person i've known. kau juga la HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! haihh...entertaining oh kau sial. syok aku ketawa.

look, we dont CARE bout u or din, we DONT give a damn, heck, u guys can just fuck each other all day long WE DONT FUCKING CARE!! NEITHER DOES AMY!!! move forward plz bitch. ur so psychotic its hilarious.

let me clarify one thing; compare to u n amy, of course, ur love life deserves more kudos. amy's relationships are like a single rice compare to u. of course. ko bagi puki ko ma. SEPA BULI LAWAN? lelaki mana nda mau. amy, on the other hand, chose NOT to. so u just go ahead and be proud of the fact that u indeed, have a boyfriend, have a flourishing love life compare to amy, coz ur simply A WHORE. k?

lawyer? really? under what Act? r u some kind of moron? lemme give u law lessons k. people from different countries/continents/sometimes states cannot simply put a restraining order/sue/etc from each other. only prime ministers/presidents/international law enforcer/etc can. r u one? no...not with that brain u cant. astaga tulung la punya budu ko ni aku nda tahan oh kimak. dont make me laugh more than i already did. and, if u somehow by miracle could afford a lawyer, and able to have a legal battle with amy, DONT. u'll lose. sepa maki sepa dulu, ha kuyuk? ko yg start BUDU u'll be the one that'll pay the compensation BUDU!

hah...anitah...mun budu payah....satu lagi ah aku explain. dont try to play god. whats with the pussy threats? "dont blame me for what'll happen to ur family"? syiriknyaaaaaa tulung la. look. its not like amy cursed your family & future generations; or things dat could be related. she just gave ur bf, which is her EX BF mind u, a simple MSG. plz. tuluuuuuung la.

oh ok. so now u wanna attack me? mulut aku kurang ajar? memang. semua org benci aku. so? aku sundal. gatal. mcm amy juga. so? i have no love life, as i noe, u stalked my blog too, so? aku p kacau bf org? SO? kau pun HELLO? u dont know me bitch. im standing up for amy sooo..now i think u wana call us lesbians. right? SO? u can curse me ALL U WANT. o ya. dont even try to create conflict between me and amy so we'll go against each other. dont even think about it. malas ta ku ingau. ur not the one who's giving me my salary. cakap ja laaaaa apa2 kau mau. it doesnt change the fact that ur stupid. and ur english is broken ur embarassing to the brunei clan. seriously. bikin malu oh kau.

haaah...ur a waste of time, and u have no friends. kesian. dont mess with a girl who has a hotelier for a best friend bitch. big mistake. so i bid u farewell, u have things to say ur welcome to drop a comment here no biggie =) if din the pussy has things to say he can write it here as well =) if ur friends wana say things too, boleh ba kalau ko! n ur family? be my guest. i'll show them how u cursed amy just for a single msg =) u started dis =) its been fun =) msg me in fb, browse me anywhere u want I DONT CARE. saya tidak takut dengan orang bodoh. PIGI MAMPUS.

mari membuat perubahan

2010-04-13T19:32:00.007+08:00

I WANNA CHANGE SOMETHING SOMEDAY SOMEHOW!!!!!! i really have dis bad, BADA habit i really wanna change.

MENGUMPAT. xD

no laughing matter people, sometimes i dont even realize that im bitching about someone, IT SEEMS LIKE IM BREATHING! NORMAL!! NATURAL!!! T____T tia mau. the worst thing is, coz i dont think, i dont realize wat it might do to others or my own self. @___@

& its not easy for the female species to admit it xD makanan kami ba tu!

but i wont make that an excuse, from now on, every time i feel like i have some good story-mory worthy of an oscar, i'd imagine all my fav guys giving me these looks

no babies i dont wanna make u angry xD hahhh sajuk sikit hati ^^ to whom it may concern, its ok dat u dont remember my name coz it isnt pretty, & the fact that u announced it in front of everybody. my lips will remain shut xD

Not good.

2010-04-12T20:26:00.003+08:00

I cant handle anything too intense at the moment. & how i'm feeling right now is as if i just jumped off the Statue of Liberty, dropping into the sea, being pulled by fishermen, mistaken for a shark, sent to Japan to be sushi, sold to a circus, put into an aquarium for a mermaid show, married to a 5 armed man, stolen then become PA to Madonna. That's how i feel now. Messed up, confusing, crazy, makes no sense, & just.....ridiculous. I feel ridiculous.

Many Many Monologues

2010-03-26T20:08:00.006+08:00

since i just recently changed my blog's name, i figured kononlaa letak picts & stuff to get theme all done & complete & stuff *punya merapu

& that's all =)

i never learn xD

2010-03-26T18:42:00.003+08:00

ok. nda buli tgk mr aquarius sda. klu nda mati aku kena bunuh mrs dia xDDDDDDDDD oh well at least it was the best eye candy i had ^____^ bersih sda mata, puas cuci xPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

itu sahaja. for futher details u can email me at imanidiot@slapme.com

not another aquarius?

2010-03-21T20:01:00.002+08:00

bah mati. MATI. i tell you. no wonder la!! kindettttttttttt...

i always fall for yg bangsat punya guys hehe...thank god that this time around, im not smarter, though im not getting dumber to not notice the destructive path im going to. & dat's simply liking a wrong guy. whew~ aquarius, leo, & cancer, main jauh2. don't spoil my moment now that i feel like gisele bunchen xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD tidak kelakar itu, bukan? bah britney la...or megan fox? mana2 la yang pinting it feels good to not have sum1 saying "buat apa weekend ni? jum dating" or "i want u to come to blah blah" time2 i have plans for myself.i really hope i can keep my head in the game! the prize, SELF EMPOWERMENT! ;P buuuuuuuut...buliii la ba kan tgk2 tu budak sekali sekala...sikit2 ja la HAHAHAHAHA xP teda pendirian btul

cukup untuk buat 12,652 koloni bed bugs

2010-02-19T19:04:00.004+08:00

punya main lama nda blogging xD bangsaaaattt PNYA LAMA HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!! *screams frantically*

kindet lama ni ba kindet...kindeeeetttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.......................jadi? mau start dari mana ni?

daku....masi single. masi 58 kilogram. masi memakai panty2 yg sama ketika menulis post2 yg lepas. masi offside. masi blum drive. masi blum ada lesen ^____~ cun la hidup ku ini hehehehe

first off, i think i should please my number one blog fan.....ME!! bahahah ya la sepa lg, me myself & i la ba ish~

im not just saying this but A LOT i tell you, A LOT..like a FATLOAD MEXICAN BURRITO lot-ness happened in this past 4 months..i got a new job, surprise surprise i got dumped *yawn*, had one too many fun nights sampai paingan & tepilai2 kapla, & like....100 PMS outrage? xD bahahahahaha...typical of a 23 year old la kan.....2......3......ye..ar.....old.........

CRAP I'M OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah...i got old....hehe....

erhem....im still 16 at heart...

talking bout ur job doesnt make u old...rite? nda pa la haha! im currently so content with my job, feel like wearing a promenade hotel t-shirt or something xD might as well right? before i start complaining? hehe i learned a lot more than i did from NovoHELL, there were a lot of these lightbulb moments ya know? im not smart so that considers as an oscar win for me..muehehehe....buuuuuut, u cant get ahead of yourself, and be up in the clouds...i must not think i know everything i must not think i know everything i must not become an idiot that just puts me back in square one~ but life stopped bullying me for now ^^ whew~ despite everything that happened, i managed~ =) ok la, i was overwhelmed at first, i was all over the place...i tell u...macam ayam kena putung kepala lari2 beehh...

other things that happened was with my lil bro. he's coming of age and well, those damn hormons. jeez. but nothing to worry about. nothing like a comunist-hitler-medieval-torturing-style wouldn't work towards him xD really. i was scary. xD

aaaannndd...hmmmm...besides that...nothing too important to say now, will sambung later...its good be a zom-blogg-ie once more xD

NEXT TIIIMMMMEEE!!!! BYYYYEEEBYEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

oh another day

2009-10-25T04:15:00.003+08:00

TITANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im watching titanic...titanic....is awesome.....ok........sikit nangis....sikit la hehe....

I LIKE THIS NEW TEMPLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but....it has no comments in its html T______T ngapa kian....well it doesnt matter anyways =D i wudve had FUN today if not for this selfish retard that ruined everything...dude...if u wanna go poop, u don't have to drag us all in the goddamn bathroom.....figuratively......ARGH!!!!! NDA DAPAT TGK WAYANG!!!!!! aku mau kuar sbb xmau tension....sama ja tension dia...bangsat...however, regardless, kuar with my cousins are always fun xD a bunch of people who just wanna laugh the whole day without a care in the world ^________________^

ok now, the lesson i learned today, is to not let people take the best of u....HOORAY!!!!!!! yeah...and to not let people fog ur own judgment...everyone is entitled to opinions...lemme keep mine, n u keep urs...win-win situation nobody loses EVERYONE'S HAPPY! =))

haaaaah...im tired of always trying to understand people, be the one who always compromises...y couldn't it be like a give n take thing kan2? its time i have my space, with people who only care about DOTA n MU hehe =D ive done my part, now im just a burden so back with the win-win thingy, im sticking to my own ground, n i promise i wont question or critisize urs..im fair!!! and lovely..ngeeeeeeeeeeee

ok now cinemax is playing this hardcore thriller/horror movie.....MUST WATCH...bbbyyyyeeeeeee!!!!

this'll be quick

2009-10-22T23:41:00.002+08:00

HOORAAAAYYY!!!! broadband ku amat2 ok sda muahahahaha...im back to being an internet junkie la ni, fb 24 hours a day, changing my blogger templates, dont forget the whining, and discovering more weird things on youtube HAHA!!

o yaa speaking of weird, last nite, the person i never wud've thought to contact me from kuantan, EVER, actually called me (WARGGH!!) err...the only thing i knew about him was probably the fact dat his mustache grows faster on the left side of his mouth...other than that, ZERO. it was weird....

oooohhhhh and hooray for my boyfriend coz he didn't listen to me when i told him to do his assignment on sunday now he's stuck with 3, and it has to be submitted tomorow! not a single one is done!!! HOORAYYY!!! akakakakaka xD

oh question, how would you react if someone told you that he/she is so popular in sabah?

hahahahahahahahahaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok2 last one....make up......I NEED A SMUDGIE!!!! ='( i cannot live without smoky eyes.......i feel like an artery vein in my body has been cut & now i'm dying bleeding to death......dats how bad i need a smudge tool......hehehe....

i'll probably make a new post again after dis heheeeeeeeeeee....bye for now

stubborn & spoiled right down to the core (whoopsie~)

2009-10-07T14:11:00.004+08:00

MIA! MIA! MIA! MIA! MIA!!!!!!!!!!!! i was mia for quite a long time. so the woes, complaints & whining will be extra long from now on xD to cover up all those lost times of course lol xD before elaborating the numerous events that happened in my life during the time i was gone, i just couldn't get this off my chest for the moment. here goes.

i.......i...i.i.i.i.i.i.i....i......i...i..i...i....do not have all the explainations for my behaviour sometimes. i might have an idea why, at times, but, it still does not fully justify wat i did. my outbursts, meltdowns, & temper can be...well...overwhelming.

i always wanna improve my life, & myself. if i feel that im a moron, i'd change till i dont feel like a moron. if i feel like i live the life of a moron, i'd improve watever the heck it is dats moron-ish in my life till it seems pretty ok to me. make sense? ok. now for the main course.

i come across as someone passive since forever! yes. ok. alright. mbah. buli ba. it gives an impression that anything goes for me. when actually, NO ba. so my life gets pretty bad after all this. i attracted pests. & sent out wrong impressions & wat not. so i dont wanna be like dis anymore. i dont wanna be miserable.

so im stamping my foot on the ground; i must get what i want! when i dont, IT ISNT ACCEPTABLE! i want what i want, if it isnt wat i want then i wont bother! it'll be a big NO all the way!

so yeah with that it works. it actually works & i do get my way & stuff. but....doesnt dis make me a moron? xD

haiihh...i win some but i lose some. in the midst of making things right for me, i became very2 stubborn & spoiled~ whoops~ an...accident u might say xD hehe...he...no dis isnt funny...i feel that my outbursts is the inner me trying to fight for wat i want that ive kinda lost my moral compass for a moment there. cant i get my way without all the stubborness & spoiledness?

cant think! mental block! vocab drought! bye2.

The Expressive Words of She Who Carried Me for 9 Months

2009-10-07T00:53:00.004+08:00

Grrr i can only remember these 3 for now....my mom is the best xD

"You've always had something against my nose!"

:: when, im not sure. what i'm sure of is that it was damn cute ^^ she was driving, my lil bro ami & myself bought some expensive almost-expired buns at a bakery we shouldn't have gone to. that aside, she asked for a piece. she made a turn and thus the bun went straight to her nose xD n accused ami for having a grudge against her nose xD

"Kunun..."

:: finally, after 10 years, she got the chance to study again. the second opportunity that she never imagined would ever happen. words can't describe this elation, this feeling of supreme achievement, it was happiness at the highest level possible. as she picked up her pen, this was the only thing she managed to say xD

"Let me coil into this blanket."

:: Upon hearing something she unpleasing to her ears. & she did actually coil xD

I dont want to, but have to

2009-09-10T14:34:00.002+08:00

Inilah ya, tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, slogan ku untuk bulan ini. I don't want to leave Novotel, but I have to. Sengsara eh. Cukup la dua bulan. Nda ku merati kan berpolitik di opis ani. INGAU KU EH!!!!! Goodbye Novotel, hello kitchen. Im better off baking chocolate cakes xD

Quit Kidding Urself xD

2009-09-02T12:02:00.003+08:00

Black Eyed Peas are coming to KL soon kan? Nah, aku letak la gmbar bep sebagai perhiasan~

Did you hear the news about Muslims banned from coming to this concert? xD hahahaha!!! Ok2, im laughing not because we shouldn't do that, it's an effort. We do need to monitor the young ones. but it just seems funny you know? like...........really? What can not watching BEP do to us? Isn't it....a....parents.....job.......to.......mould....their......children.........to be a proper muslim? But yeah....how can they when.......parents......don't....understand....their children? let alone try to?

*diam jap*

erhem. k sambung.

Orait. Maybe, coz the main organizer is Guiness, u know, the booze company. Ok2. So the effort is to instill in the minds of muslim malaysian youth that they aren't supposed to be near Mr Alco. Okla, that will probably work in the long run, we just have to get used to it, & turn it into a commitment. What with the model Kartika's case & stuff, our government seems serious about this. Take note. SEEMS serious.

Now read this.

http://malaysia.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090901/ten-entertainment-malaysia-religion-isla-1dc2b55.html

*ROLLS EYE*

pehhh. so much for trying to set a good example. bawah meja ka ni?

If they aren't serious, how could we? Maybe, they just AREN'T.

Not...what I bargained for

2009-08-25T13:16:00.002+08:00

Please read the awesome list below. Thank you.

Hannah is,

vocal. i talk.
a thinker. i may know what's right & wrong.
not a moron. I can tell if ur using me as ur scapegoat, doormat, & etc.
a pemanas. saya pun pandai marah balik kalau ko marah.
alert. don't play childish games with me.
a person who can hold a grudge against someone.
not sympathetic towards the pathetic.
not one to kiss any asses.
patient, but not to idiots.
actually a nice person (^_^)V *peace*

Mau cari tempat kerja yg lain. I've been saying this a lot sudah. Damn. DAMN!

ps: how nice if i could just put that bitch's name right here in my blog!! really...i didn't hold my studies to be just THIS & being treated like a stupid child.

nda mau dgr ckap org suda

2009-08-18T17:53:00.002+08:00

need to re-arrange my trust cabinet. nda semua org buli ada sna tu. *paranoid* itu ja. sebenarnya. i dont feel like sprinkling fancy words today. i do not trust everyone around me.

Skype!

2009-08-14T10:44:00.003+08:00

fb xbleh log in

fs pun

blogging bleh, but its...basically talking to urself T_T

YM HANGKANG!!!!!!

skype me plz people :D (kesian kan?)

*muka 5sen*

my skype name: hunnah.wunnah

uwa. bor. ing.

Working Girl

2009-08-04T13:36:00.011+08:00

nah ive never seen the movie xD lol

its been a month, me here in novotel. i spent on booze (not mine), charles & keith's fucshia shoes & cobalt snakeskin handbag (mum & sis), quicksilver uber cool skater button-up shirt (wish it was mine) & two packs of keropok lekor from a shop at university apartments (my requests...YES!). Boy, this part, I like =)

Wanna know what I had to do to get that reward?

5 people were resigning the first week of my job, making me as disoriented & cluttered as if I was Olympic Games winner Wang Hao's ping pong ball. Oh yes. Im not playing here. It feels as though I was teleporting. Mentally & physically. My brain's favorite question was, "What the heck am I supposed to do here?" then poof! Teleport. To an unknown world to men & woman alike where creatures of many sizes & shapes coexist together & they all have one thing in common; they are short-tempered & intolerent in nature & favor those who can read minds. *gasp!*

For a week, it went ok. I learned how to be a psychic & when to turn off the switch in my head. But when I was just starting to get the hang of my job, my brain's favorite word was, "Biarlah". Which led to one messy working table, a lot of high volumed phone calls, & one angry boss. Whew. Not a good time people. Oh yes. Let's not forget it also causes awkward-feeling collegues. They were afraid that I might turn psychotic. & cause a massacre or something xD

Wanna know more? A new person came. A manager. & managers need their coordinators. COORDINATORS! An executive would be nice. But alas, there is only one coordinator in this department. Yup, lil ol me. Or should I say big fat me, doesnt make a difference. It'll still be me. Alone. & this is my first job. I have 3 managers. THREE. Not that I'm complaining. BUT THREE PEOPLE! THREE! Marila kamu kerja cni T_T Did I mention I always go home 2 hours after my working hours are done? Yeah. That's the earliest I can go. & its only during my half day do I actually go back home on time as my regular working days. *what?!*

So let's not talk about the less (or should I say none at all) time I had with my loved ones ='(

For the next thing I'm going to say, it won't be much, & it requires you to read between the lines. People are different from one another, some might be nice, some wont. Some have an excellent personallity, some are just plain IDIOTS. Sekian. (The word starts with an "F", & rhymes with light) Oh, I started it xD

So that's just it. The rest, you know the deal. Alaa...office stuff. Bowringgggggggggg. I don't need to tell you how awesome I am with a computer (ha...ha....ha.....) or with answering calls (he....he....he.....) or wearing black stilletto pumps (ho...ho...ho....) Erm. I just realized that I have denounce myself X___X

Aaaaaanyways. I'm done writing. This is a matter of life & death, I hate to stop LOL hahahaha! Back to work then ^^

I grew WARTS. On my fingers & hands. (added 5.33pm) & R still hasnt contacted me ='((

the microwave is a good guy after all..go green team!

2009-08-03T18:43:00.001+08:00

http://green.yahoo.com/blog/daily_green_news/102/seven-surprising-facts-and-myths-about-microwave-ovens.html

back to back

2009-07-27T23:57:00.003+08:00

NUMB.

is it ok to say dat im actually embarassed to talk about my new work?

im holding back...coz...dats...wat i do

=PP

but dont get any ideas now!

im doing a legal job & everything its just dat OH NVM!! *sulks at own ridiculousness*

i should be the happiest person in the world now

my lil sis naha is home

making the family complete!

my best friend amy has also finished her practical

& is here!

HOORAY!

puasa is coming, i cant wait

time for the cleansing of the mind, body & soul..

the month couldn't have come in a better time

i really needed it

but i'm not happy

i am CONTENT.

dat's good enough right?

plus,

i have me a pair of shoulders to lean on

even though they might not be there all the time

once in a while is better than none at all =)

♥R♥

ps: this was just an update. im not apologizing for boring u HAHA!

hush

2009-07-27T23:41:00.004+08:00

I'm still choked up for Micheal Jackson. I can't bring myself to watch his memorial till now. Maybe to others his passing is old news, but not for me. That guy was the reason I have DREAMS.

Yasmin Ahmad was one of the bravest, fearless & most open-minded person in the film industry here. There could never be anyone like her again; at least not for another 100 years when WE would actually ACCEPT the REAL idea of UNITY. I'm on the Hang Jebat's team.

Al-Fatihah.

what if the word "burit" was an everyday, normal word like "saya"?

2009-07-13T12:53:00.002+08:00

Hai. Nama burit, Siti Raihannah. Apa khabar? Burit khabar baik.
Mana kau? Burit disini sudah ah. Jumpa burit di ground floor sana.
Gatal ba burit ni. Hahahahahahaa!
Burit burit besar sudah ni. neeehhh mana satu penggunaan saya untuk burit?!
Burit sayang sama sayang. err....ew.

ooh ovari...

2009-07-10T16:21:00.004+08:00

mengapakah anda mengeluarkan ovum pada waktu sekarang? dikala masa-masa yang genting lagi parak? adakah kamu dambakan perhatian kerana ovari yang kedua iaitu ovari sebelah kanan telah lama meninggalkanmu? aku......hanya mampu....makan menstrual pain panadol yg berwarna pink untuk menenangkan hatimu yang pilu itu..............................................................

peace.

ui si hannah kerja sudah!!!!!

2009-07-10T12:52:00.002+08:00

kamu ada dengar ka tu???

tambirang sudah dia ooooohhhh.....

kunun bekemeja la dia sekarang HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!

pndai bz sudah dia skrg kimmmaaaaakkkk

T__________________________________________________T

lalalalaaaaa.....

ih..ba apa mau ckap ni?

2009-07-06T04:18:00.004+08:00

halu. aku kena suruh update blog.

*crickets*

*sighs*

*scratches head*

*thinks......*

*blogging mode: activated*

it's been a while since i've blog, so pardon the awkward & dull words =P (terus ckp english ba kunu...KIMAK!) i make transitions in my internet-bug activities. Rotating's what u call it HAHA! lol ;P from fs, to fb, to blogspot, to onemanga (yes im serious) to youtube to google & right down to just checking my mails..ini la ba hidup penganggur, not much going on, even if i haven't blogged anything for quite some time but when i do, it'll still be the same thing.....actually~ :D

hmmmmm but speaking about pengangguran si hannah ini, i've kinda made up my mind to studying in UMS...HOORAHH!!! im given time till next year, & if i just laze around not doing anything productive, my mom'll literally throw me to UMS...ok la ba kan?

Oh! I am grounded. Yes. Kinda happily grounded i might say. I went out for a straight 2 weeks with my best friends who were in town for a short time; i reaaaaaallllyyyy CAN'T say no to spending time with them & coming home at 3-4 am in the morn :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D so no regrets HAHAHAHAHAHHAA!!!! IM GROUNDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

erhem. on a more serious note, 2 others have fallen victim to my ultimate birthday annihilation. I AM PROUD OF MYSELF. pictures will be up ^^ oh tepung, how i love u so! *tears*

oh yeah! yesterday was my baby brother's birthday ^^ but alas, the dude is still to fragile to be tormented of being fooled & tortured to bits for the sake of his birthday. tggu ko habis SPM wahai adik kesayanganku. I had a really good time with him & the rest of my family just now =) if only the other baby (naha) was there, COMPLETE SDA! missing her la ^^

Next saturday will be a picnic with chocolate cakes. coz someone important is coming ^_________^ AMESZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope to see EVERYONE soon, after my grounding's done ;P they're busybees ^^ unlike Madam Lazy right here ;P i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait TO SEE MY BESTFRIEND AMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS HER SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe. k im done now. deactivating the mode shit thingy =P

ahh...one more thing. hunnah loves ridhwan ^^ SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! next post :P

this familiar dead-end feeling is kinda soothing~~~~~~

2009-06-11T05:46:00.002+08:00

nothing compares to home ^^ yup, dat getaway gave me what i needed...& opened my eyes to something i should've seen sooner, but oh well...now i know better right? u don't expect a loved one stepping on u...but sometimes they do~

one thing's sure got me excited..i'm no longer tangled in a state of confusion by a big baby...tho the word DARLING will haunt me forever. damn. BUT!!!! IT'S ALL OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so im reunited with my true love (the internet) and back with my best friend (the refridgerator) and reconciled with my nemesis (the laundry) hehe...it's back to day dreaming and chasing cars...cloud nine...blurry.. ;)

tho one thing bothered me, i didnt accomplish one thing while on my holiday...

MR ENKI

u. me. kuantan. next time. be there.

*back to blurry mode*

hmmmmm...lemme enjoy this for a while.....hehe......i'll pour the rest of my words next time...oh HOOMMMEEEEYYY!!!!!

<-------- im a shy one... nosebleed

2009-06-02T01:32:00.002+08:00

in life u have to be adventurous, sometimes u have to put a pervert in ur blog. yes. let's change the world.

I AM SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i nearly coughed up some really massive phlegm to the dear old tan sri who was handing out the scroll at my convo just now...to really hide that fugly coughing face from being caught in picture & that picture will be hung on my wall for the rest of my life, i did this :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

hehehehhehehehhehehehehehehehehehheehhehehehehehhehehheheeheheheh

it was all good, i did not puke or coughed while on staged as i feard, & that smile was a saver =D even the tan sri seemed happy that i was smiling like a retard...if he knew the reason behind it, he would probably be so thankful, coz if not he'd be puking his dinner tonight. whew. parak oh sore throat. kimarks.

now that im with family again, my head's back to normal. im so close to feeling normal. yayy. wait till i get home. my VIPs, u noe hu u r, jgn malu2, to all the slim shady, plz stand up...plz stand up....plz stand up....hehe...lawak babi demam campak ka apa ni kimaaaaak....

CANT WAIT TO GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im done holidaying...hooraaahh hoorraaaahh hoorrraaahhh hoorrraaaahhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~

the great escape =P

2009-05-20T21:48:00.004+08:00

As a drifting waste sailing on the river banks,
I follow what may,
Destination nor desire,
I have none
Purpose,
Life,
What keeps me going,
Is only my on-going breath
My heart
Till it stops.

i need to get outta here for a while before i lose my mind. 22nd may. OH YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AIYOOO!!! ahahahahahaha..hahahaa..ha..ha..ha...?? apaini????

2009-05-11T13:57:00.002+08:00

i have an ass cramp for the first time in my life.

oh the agony T_T

my tushie keeps "expanding" more & more due to excessive tribal bellydancing! so i stopped, then for not more than 1 week, i have been punished T_T OW~....i guess there's no turning back now *sobs*

baah bah baaahhh ya la ya la ya laaaaaa *tears while belly-flopping*

freedom. in a cage.

2009-05-07T20:32:00.002+08:00

gahh. im lost. confused. don't know what to do. don't know where i'm heading. & i don't really have the right people to guide me here. hellooooooooooo...mak ai.

i need to be given advices at times, not the one to give them all the time. i need the one to be listened to, not the one that has to listen. WAIT! i am not seeking for attention nor am i one selfish bitch, i'm just asking for some slack. you know. lemme breath for a while. whoo.

i wanna be able to ask a question and people to answer me truthfully. not based on their own importance. such as, should i go to danum? yes, coz ur mopping 'round the house, u look miserable. instead of, no *miserable face* adeh.

if i'm not allowed to do what i want, then when will i be able to? aren't my despair *sorry, feeling a lil vocabularic" a thing to pay attention to before they turn to regrets & i'll never forgive you for that...like, EVER? justice...I NEED JUSTICE!!!!!!!!

i've changed. I'VE CHANGED. i've always been a person who doesn't like to be tied down, like waaaaaaaay down, that i can literally taste the grass, and right now, that has evolved i guess. i do NOT want to belong to anybody. repeat, ANYBODY. i am sooooooo a husband to a certain person right now. gila eh.

i have things that i want. & to be understood of the things that i want. im running out of time here. there's things that i wanna achieve. things i wanna do. things i dream of. lemme emphasize, dream. just cause you were robbed of yours, doesn't mean that it has to be the same for me =(

so i'm just gonna sit here & watch people surpass me? jeez. okay, hannah the fat, silly, funny, laughs at herself a lot, does have pride & ego ok. HUGE ones. some just don't realize. even worse, *waaarrghh* i do not wanna say the "c" word.

so, how long am i gonna stay here? i have to say that this is not a bad place; sheltered, protected, secured, carefree....blah blah blah. wanna know what happens if i try to get out? i get FED. i was fed so much till i can't move. seriously. if u think a little bit deeper, i think you'd know what i mean, its "bribery". or however you see it. i just...*sigh* aduuuuuuuyay.

you can't be happy when these thoughts still come to your mind. you can't be at peace when you haven't felt that self-satisfaction yet. my desires, my passion....bila? when? you CAN'T feel freedom in cage. that's BULLSHIT.

I speak in cryptic words :D :D :D :D :D :D

2009-05-04T22:38:00.003+08:00

I tend to express the opposite of what I actually feel by justifying it with something artificial & forced. So as to compensate & overtake the emotion that I was actually feeling. Only occasionally that I really say what I wanna say.

I know, been listening to My Chemical Romance.

>______________________<

is happiness a choice?

2009-05-04T04:43:00.002+08:00

WAARRRGGHHH!!! KENAPA?????? kenapa....KENAPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

card reader ku...entah kemana...how am i gonna show off my pictures? not that they're that good anyways...but just..just..just...just...how am i gonna show off to the world of my happy little life filled with perfectness & joy & contentment & peace & happiness & smiley faces & laughter & ...

wokay. baik nda pa la kan. bagus la tu kan aku nda dapat upload picts.

ngarut mu hannah.

bye.

L.O.V.E.

2009-04-27T01:10:00.009+08:00

It's better to feel many types of sadness then coming to a home that's EMPTY. =) My family ROOOCCCCCKKKKKSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/

who am i kidding =)

2009-04-24T02:27:00.003+08:00

bah. hannah. if u can't & won't let urself pour out anything, then dammit stop wasting ur damn time!!!

pardon my mood swings yah. besala. xena the warrior princess. @_@

i'm not supposed to be awake right now, i have to wake up early to go jogging with my sayang2Ku at taman likas tomorow. ahh well, i'll still wake up early tomorow nonetheless, so it matters not :D

*kenapa...ayat ku...begini?*

at times, i do act HUMAN & feel that i am unable to suppress or pretend nothing is happening to me internally. there i was trying to write another ludicrous post about my silly self & trying to cheer myself up while joking & saying stuff dat'll make people laugh. hahh. like i said, who am i kidding?

aaaaaiiiiii..fil laik ai don hev tu opolojais for biying imo. it is my blog aint it.

*another symptom of mine...Paranoid*

im sure people sometimes feel like they half wanted to say something, & also not wanting to let people in & know what's bothering them, & thus they end up complaining about.......absolutely NOTHING at all. =D sorry baaaaaaaaaaah. gini la ba kerja aku kalau blogging. nda paedah2 miahahahaha.

so i can't make a funny post bout my imperfections for now & laughing hard at it & feeling relieved & believing that i am contempt. FOR NOW tho. =D =D =D =D =D

i need to just accept this for the moment & not let anything spoil it. i think im gonna have a good sleep tonight & dream about the beautiful day i had today ^________________^

*sounds a tad too sickly & sweet for a moment there @_@*

yippee

2009-04-22T20:24:00.002+08:00

WAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't stand this. i am so not comprehended right now, i'm like a foreign language to some people. im confusing. im baffling.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im losing my mind here. urgh.

ok i whine. BITE ME.

probably drank too much coffee

2009-04-21T07:06:00.002+08:00

=D

padan muka. neeeeehhh.

tehee~ i dont know what to do with myself~ JENG JENG!!! dunnooo what to doooo with myseeeelf jeng jeng!! aaaAAAaaaaAAAA.....

hear me ROAR

2009-04-20T00:36:00.007+08:00

my head was touched by a 210 Celsius steel. HOT. so horizontally, i have burns on my head that looks like a bunch of booger stickers stacking on the left side of my nagen. pretty? i think NOT. so i went to a store yesterday, somewhere near my place, and opposite the stationary & printing shop, 5 blocks away from the pasar inanam, a few steps ahead from the lady that sells corn in cup (oh yummy), just around the corner of fei fei workshop, beside the store that i actually went, is a restaurant with an open bathroom. open = platforms of wood, place them in a cubic kind of shape, tada! a toilet. it doesn't even need a door. ew. it was just inches from the tables...that...u....actually.....eat....on. wow.

i......am an artist. i love art. everything i do is about art. art is me, & i am art. art is in my veins. art art art art. ART! from fARTing to watching bART simpsons, i savy art. i think, this particular word, is being vandalized. who wants to send me to jail?

KUIH SAPIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go to papar & buy me some original kuih sapit. & kuih kelapa. oh nyaman. tolong la. TOLONG LA!

*these few lines have been deleted by me for bowling reasons. i am not a grasshopper*

so, this dude says, "i'm going to asia!!! YEAAAAAHHH!!!!!" this other dude says, "cool! get me aishwarya rai's autograph or something will ya?" and then he replies, "what? you stupid? that's in India." so the other dude says, "yeah, ur going to asia right? that's why i..." the other dude butts in, "no man, i'm going to ASIA. i wanna watch kung fu pow pow POW!" thus, the dude can only say, ".................................................................." hahh. aint we lucky?

oh dear. i feel so scatterbrained right now, i actually feel like a roadkill. u know, when them chickens & what not running amock when cars are here and there. then *SCCRRRAAAAAAAAPPPEEEEEE* hah. yah.

pardon me. i dont like being angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bida ni ba rasa dia. emo2. ish. yuck. ptui. i spit at you.

i'll.....shut up now.

sweet & simple

2009-04-18T00:55:00.002+08:00

cousin's house
interview went ok
forgot wallet, left penniless
last person on mind to show up & picked me up
the irony
home
slept
dreamed
woke up
thoughts
......
........
........
......
.......
........
.......
...........................................................
f*ck. i've been used.

thank u.

kenapa bah. muka aku kena cop apa oh?

great.....now i have to choose between two again

2009-04-16T21:21:00.003+08:00

Both are decent choices. Either two of them are fine; one's far away, one's right here in kk. One's ready to accept me, one's still undetermined. This one is in kk. The "judgement" day is tomorow. I don't even know what to say yet @_@

I want both of them! Of course, not only is it impossible, it's ridiculous :P Nothing good comes from being greedy. Don't forget that hannah.

It's still doesn't change the fact though, that I have to somehow let go of one. It's gonna take a toll on my conscience. I can feel it T_T I'll be feeling all guilty & whiny & complain-ny & everything-y. Argh. I hate choosing! =(

I want the one in kk but what if I'm not wanted? If I take the one that's far away, the DISTANCE man...I'm not kidding. FAR.

I guess I have to make a wise choice. That seems somewhat unlikely of the infamous hannah the childish nerd. But I have to try because I might end up losing both. Which is much worse. I need a little guidance & probably more advices from my VIPs. People, I need you T_T

Oh yeah, I'm talking bout job offers here by the way. Forgot to mention that. Tomorow's the interview with Imperial Hotel (kk). Whoopsie~

Pucker Up!

2009-04-14T03:57:00.006+08:00

MWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

As normal human beings, we all have insecurities. Imperfections in every one of us indicates that we are mere God's creation, nothing more. To live, we can all try to overcome our insecurities; be it going for soul-healing sessions or to alter our imperfections. And make them beautiful in our own eyes. *sigh* These ladies, unfortunately, made themselves looking 10 times worst than what they already were. Astagaaaaaaa. Serious. Keep scrolling.

Silicon lips. Who's to blame? Yes, us women have every right to make ourselves pleasing in the eyes; but I think there is a limit to where these beautifying procedures can be too much. Right? A sky-rocketing profit for the surgeons or obsessions with beauty...which actually made this silicon lips era? @_@ Maybelline's lip gloss & Bed Head's lipsticks are fine!

Why would they want thick big lips anyways?? It baffles me. If I was given a free & paid for silicon lips surgery, I'd prefer Maggi =D AYAM FLAVOUR!!!! nyum nyum...uh oh. now I'm craving.

OHHH NOOOOO COURTNEY LOVE!!!!! T_T She was fine without the fake lips, she already had that pouty & full lips...

Okay. Surgery was supposed to make someone look better; like the iconic Norma Jean@Marilyn Monroe did. It did wonders for her & so many others. Botox, I can cope, but this is just seriously the oddest trend ever. Waaaarrrgghhhh!!!! This isn't flattering at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Didn't anybody tell them that???? Ok ok...who am I to question when they wanna go under the knife right, it's their choice. But but but but this is.....attractive in a different way. It sure attracts attention in definitely the WRONG way.

This..............................................is disturbing @_@

Dude, you look like a DUDE. I am so glad that this insane trend isn't conquering where I live. It would be weird looking at people around me that has these kinda lips. Let alone people I know TT________TT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! *nightmare*

I'M OUT OF WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Appreciating & accepting yourself is very important isn't it?

i like to explain every single thing bit by bit especially if it has something to do with my blog, from its name to my post's date's font's color

2009-04-14T03:28:00.013+08:00

i made changes. =D gee, that was so not obvious wasn't it?

raaawwwwkkk....!!!!

dude, do not shake the bottle. seriously.

2009-04-13T03:25:00.007+08:00

being nice really just gives u issues huh? woookay.

u know how my post usually starts with stuff like,

"Im feeling kind of............"

"It's just so sad................"

"Im so angry that............."

"Im stressed out......."

"Syam is so hot........"

oops.

that last sentence.....probably was the first time i write it here =D

couldn't resist LMAO!!

nakal! :P *distracted for a good 10 minutes*

ERHEM.

i think i've mentioned it before too, when trying to not be a pain in someone's ass, it brings pain into ur own ass. T_T aye, sad but true. that seems to be like a theme for my life. im cursed. for a whole lifetime.

i have like a trivial & complicated issue with a certain someone whom i do not wanna mention. i wanna forget the whole thing, we're supposed to be close, heck, we're flesh & blood. but, that person dissapointed & hurt me so badly, i couldn't even talk it out with him/her. *i wanna keep this person anonymous.*

i've wrote about this person before in my previous posts. and i kept how i felt & my thoughts to myself as it feels disgusting even on my tounge to talk about it. I REALLY CAN'T! that indifferent face & nonchalant behaviour really from him/her puts me down. that person knew what he/she had done to me but it seems like he/she doesn't care.

seeing as how talking won't get anywhere anyways, i tried to swallow everything & forget about it. but when something so strong is bottled up in u, it is bound to leak its way out of ur heart. i am human nonetheless. i do have feelings.

so, that person went & did some things that really2 pisses me off & those kept emotions of mine arised. if it hasn't anything to do with what happened in the past, its okay. the thing is, it HAS something to do with it. undoubtedly, i guess that person really does not understand what im going thru. =(

penat. really penat with this. im tired of compromising. with me refusing to not come clean with u, im doing u one BIG FAT FAVOUR. im sparing u the guilt that u should've felt due to ur own actions. im burdening my own self carrying this heavy bottle containing of ur wrong doings to me, so shouldn't it be like a silent mutual thing? u r the MATURE ONE.

so dude...................do not shake the bottle. seriously.

=P

2009-04-11T03:45:00.006+08:00

*otak memberontak. dia enggan tidur*

astaga!!!! i have an exam tomorow!!!!! @.@

2009-04-11T01:36:00.003+08:00

& here i am, in front of my laptop :D

tomorrow's the takaful exam, &....well....erm....i've only memorized the table of content T_T

after meeting up with my bestie amesz, i promised myself that i would definitely read the book.

but.....

QUENTIN TARENTINO'S BACK-TO-BACK MOVIES ARE PLAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how can i resist maaaaan....i love his movies @.@

uhuh im so bad ;P

erhem!

i feel like this week has been quite a rollercoaster ride...most of it going down..my mind's just blank most of the time~ like im experiencing burnout coz of staying at home too much T_T guess that's explains me no being able to study? :D *alasan*

but reaaaaallyyyy!!! i don't even have anything interesting to write, tp...mau blog juga >(

oh yeah, i just have this teeny explaination to make! if ur hearing black-metalish or darth vader's voice when opening my blog, i am not spreading evil nor is Mr Darth Vader trying to communicate to u..it's...my songlist T______T in case ur curious, Tala Tala Tala Tala consist of:

~Dope Crunk by Beats Antique~

~Elastic Eye by The Chemical Brothers~

~Shake Break Bounce by The Chemical Brothers~

~Slow Spines by Chris Clark (this could be the one sounding like Darth Vader)~

~Digital Monkey by Balkan Beat Box~

~Snakecharmer by Bassnectar~

^___________________________________________^

I HEART THESE SONGS!

wallflower, out! =)

Takziah

2009-04-09T18:31:00.002+08:00

To my Aunt, my dad's first cousin, whom unfortunately I did not spend much time with, who passed away on the 7th of April. You are dearly missed, & you won't be forgotten. Al-fatihah.

Unsaid words, what you wish could have done, the true intentions in the deepest depth of your heart.....i wish.............how i wish.........

Don't need distractions at the moment!

2009-04-07T23:43:00.004+08:00

ahh. here i go again. focused one second, forgets everything the next. NO! i will not think about what people will think but to do whatever i want & whatever makes me happy. i gotta constantly remind myself this little fact here every single day. & my so-called renewed resolution, I'M WORKING ON THAT! so i can't loose myself, gotta be focused before i get in too deep. eerrrmm a lil note btw, this is probably something that only i can understand...right? eheh. ooops. erm. i don't intend to elaborate much anyways. i need my bestie amesz. amyyyy... *muka sepusin*

it's just that, i hate it when I'm not the one in control of myself. but its these.......misleading things that are taking the best of me. tidak mahu.

between yes, no, & maybe, i have an absolute answer now. its NO. i don't mind watching the sunset on my own. hehe merry happy, kate nash!

&, i don't need to think about pleasing anyone now either. other than my VIPs :D :D :D :D u know who u r =)

i actually feel a little better, despite a vague & unclear post :P

a lesson for all teachers >:D

2009-04-07T02:54:00.003+08:00

jan jahat sama budak2. dgr cakap drg (^^)

matai ko. miahahahahahahahha

Flight of the Conchords - JENNY

2009-04-07T01:45:00.001+08:00

ahahahahahahahahhaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahhaahhaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hari yang paling random

2009-04-06T23:09:00.003+08:00

good evening :D

ini post ni semua pasal saya. brace urself, its LONG ahahahha...haa...ahahh *ketawa angin*

i don't know how my interview went!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the anxiety still hits me even when everything was over...hmm i dunno if that was like a real interview or anything, they still have to refer to this one dude..well, at least, i smelled good & i put on my best bila-jumpa-mama-mentua smile. up to them la suda tu kan? :D :D :D

ok, this might sound psychologically off, but when im alone & taking the bus or walking, my train of thought is so intense i feel like my brain & me are two different entities. do i....need a shrink? haha! from the days of my diploma, when traveling to get my ass to the airport, excursions, on a bus from ktn to kl & back, on the plane itself, dammit, I FRIGGIN' THINK A LOT!!!!!!!!! at times it can be soothing, at times the skeletons in my closet comes out on its own. they would mock me >.<>

first mishap of the day, lambat bangun. ^______^ eheh. fuuh. nsb baik miss irene pun busy time pagi. whew~ then i walked out of my room, my lil bro was eating maggi, & could still hear my big bro's snores. oh lookie, my mom is still here too. okay. @_@ both of my brothers ponteng school!!! kaliff nda pigi kelas! @_____@ & mama nda pegi office..she's just gonna go to teach =D hahh..cumilnya family ku ^____^

k, my mom sent me to my dad's office. the company was just in front of his anyways, so dgn selambanya masuk p office dia & said

"haaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiii papaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"

nden, he said,

"bukan the tourism division tu d sadong jaya ka?"

erm. wait. inoprise is....d depan office papa la kan? i was in likas. sadong jaya = kk

TTT__________________________TTT

"eheh...buli papa...hantar hannah p kk? :D" ngahahahhah

"ya ya papa hantar, cepat" :P lalalalaaa...

& so i got there, did the interview, & went to get the best roti sardine in the whole world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D forgotla nama restaurant tu, but i went there last time & ordered tu roti sardine la, haihh...pnya nyaman...ohh & i saw my old schoolmate. junior la. mau tegur...but he was so proud of his girlfriend *sigh* & he made a face that stated "im the man" ???????? bah. aku makan la dlu ah. while watching men in their underpants. literally hahaha!! tv 2 was interviewing former Mr. Kuching 1989 & he was eating 10 boiled eggs @_@ muak eh. yeckhh.

it stopped raining, & so i guess i'll walk from sadong to karamunsing's bustop (-_-") i didnt wana wait up on my parents, & it was still early so i decided to go home on my own. its far, but i just didn't wanna wait.

so, my scatterbrained thoughts started, as usual. i just wanna think about everything surrounding me & comment it in my own head. as i was thinking & thinking & thinking some more, i was already near the bustop. hooray! :D i was actually near the wide green vass that i just usually passed inside of a car. it was kinda nice :D it wasn't as far as i thought too!!!

so, all i had to do now was cross the road...so...

"AMOOOOOIIIII!!!! INI ORG KIRIM SALAM BA MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!"

wtf....

*cars honking*

KIMAK!!!!!!!!!! tidak lucu tu T_T aku...hmpir kena langgar sbb kau mau ckp kwn ko kirim slam. meh aku silambam dulu kau.

but my mood quickly changed! i was passing under a jalan tingkat2 *nda tau cmna mau explain* pnya smat @_@ i will bring naha there one day for ammature photography sessions ;P

so i finally got to the bustop. :D whew. no more weird encounters i hope. so i was just daydreaming & thinking while waiting, then a pacik tegur me "nak, mana kau mo pigi ni?" i told him, & he asked where i was from, bangsa apa, jawab ja la. didn't look like a harmful person so i just talked to him. then he said "blah blah pacik aziz blah blah blah" the rest was kinda incomprehendable...so i just nodded la. entah apa dia bilang.

nden, smpai la my bus kan. so i walked to get my butt in there, nden this pacik (aziz, i guess) was suddenly standing up & said "ini bagi dia duduk ini, ko kasi dia duduk saya kenal ini" ? hah? oh...ok, thanks i guess but i could stand. im no whiner. nden the bus conductor talked to him. pointed to me & said "mari cni saudara pacik aziz!" ??????? what? apa? kah? ok. aku. naik. saja. lah. the pacik was talking to the bus driver. what's going on here?

gerak la suda bas tu kan. but i was still confused with what just happened. oh well. so, i took out my tambang, pointing to the bus conductor, giving it to him. & he refused it with a tiny head shake. ?????????????????? aik. kenapa? multiple times, i pointed it to him, but he didnt seem to want it. ???????????????????????? c'moooooooooooooooooooon let me pay like everyone else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im not priviliged with anything here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nden, the pacik came into my head. @_@ *gasp* mafia ka pacik td tu? erm. im just gonna put on my iPod.

so, i arrived home. i tried to pay for my ride, but all the bus dude said was "Jalan ja la" TT____________________TT hahh. ok.

it's still a long way till i actually get my butt home. i have to walk about, half a mile? maybe? kinda far but i like the view especially when its rainy. the clouds get all dramatic & smoky. iim gonna kidnap my dad's cam one of these days & take them cloud picts!!!! heheheheheh...best baaa..mau2 lg kalau curi2 naik tangki air dekat guardhouse tu. wahh.

suddenly, my feet feels kinda sore. they hurt!! my ankles was killing me! staga. teda pun aku terseliuh td!! kenapa sakit niiiiiii...duinah mcm2 la ba. then, i looked down to my feet.

yes. of course. the whole point of me being out of the house was to attend an interview.

OF COURSE I HAVE 3 INCH HEELS ON.

(-________________________________________-")

i....wasn't aware of that. i should've just waited for my parents shouldn't I? LMAO

itulah...that was my day...from my eyes, my views, my perspective...where I could reminisce about it one day & laugh, frown maybe, & unable to explain why :D just one of those days that are both senseless & significant at the same time. boy. i talk a lot don't i?

hahh..mcm dpt spek baru

2009-04-06T00:10:00.004+08:00

ni baru nyaman mata ku!! nnt2la bebackground yg cumil2...serabut ni ba :D

hooraaahhh tomorow's my interview with inorprise :D :D :D :D :D :D i dont wanna jinx myself so i'll just shut up bout dis untill its all done ;P

wokehh..today, i went out with my lil bro ami!! =) my darling lil bro...here's the thing...usually, lil brothers are clingy to their elder siblings right? and when u go out, they wanna follow too...watever u wanna do, they are just up in your face and wanting to tag along with u.

but wit me & that cute lil bro of mine, its the whole opposite thing MIAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!

im the clingy one (^^,) hehehehehehe seriously~ i pretty much do everything he does from playing the PS 2, reading manga, and occasionally (& i mean, jarang2) watch football..LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....tho i look like an idiot when i do so he doesn't really recommend that i watch football hehehe

so today, as if i don't embarrass myself enough, being the immature & childish one, i discovered that...he....is....knowledgable than me....

(-_____________________________________________________-")

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! hahahahaha

konon la kan....konon....i brought him out to study, he's having PMR this year and it's hard to study at home, i know that, & so i wanted to tutor him a bit, sit down somewhere and stuff..we were reading & answering questions, he did it all without me doing anything T____T he even knew things that weren't in his text book TT_______________TT he corrected me most of the time......

bolehkah aku menangis?

gila lah. bangga la juga :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

but seriously duuuude that made me feel like a bimbo...BIG TIME >.<

oh well hahahahaha...cant help being who i am...dia pun sama :D :D :D :D

thoughts for today: those old wounds never really healed. im aware of that. hmmm najib the new PM eh? are we in good hands people? i have a baaaaaaaad vibe bout dis.......next post!!!

a bad coloured rainbow hahaha

2009-04-03T21:49:00.005+08:00

hehahaaaa. i did some changes to my blog but the colours are still......berhamburan hehehehehehe. sakit la jua mata tgk >.<

i didn't plan on writing anything specific (or useful hehee) on this post (as always) sooooooooo...wanna see my new pictures? :DDDDDDD

Before:

After:

(nope that won't do...again!)

FINAL:

wat do ya think??????? ngehh...at times, i do feel like Xena...u know...the warrior princess? i didnt at first but seriously, im hearing the theme song a lot in my head nowadays @_@ but, im really liking this new hair. its kinda like a transformation, which was what i wanted! i was getting tired of my old hair so much. (do i sound self-centered? :P)

3 comments i cannot forget:

1. "U don't look malaysian! or asian! or eroupean! u look...HANNAH!" by my mom. she meant i created a new race. bangsa hannah. i looked so different i created a new race hehehehehe i love my mom ^___^ course, moms always say nice things bout their kids, so im still on earth ;)

2. "Hannaaaaaaaaah u look nice!" by my lil bro. that's the first time he said that =)

3. "My, siapa kawan ko ni? dari hari tu lagi aku nampak" my best friend amy's mom. we've known each other for the past 11 years. that's about the same time i've known her mom too :D :D :D :D :D :D

no 1 & 3 cracks me up to tears ^______________________^ while no 2, gave me tears for a different reason =))

well, that's it for now. i have tons of things to write but i'll save that for another time. my back ache is IMPOSSIBLE!!! i guess i have been sitting here a bit too long....ehehh..

id like to say thank u to those new people who visited my blog! do feel free to leave any comment or say something at the chat box =)

bye bye now!

is it too late for a resolution?

2009-04-02T20:09:00.005+08:00

hello wello =D hunnah wunnah says hiya wiyaaaaaaa

*ish, lame.*

I, siti raihannah binti mohammad, is a VEGETABLE. i haven't been doing anything good for the people around me, neither do i have done anything for myself. ^____^ ehehehehe~ whoops.

rewind for a little bit, my new years resolution was to change my vulnerable self. i didnt wanna be stepped on, taken advantage of, it was just that minor thing. i didnt wanna be lied to la by a certain someone; but it was just that. & i figured, that isn't enough to last me for the rest of the year.

i wanna work hard. i wanna be smarter. i wanna be able to not depend on others, including my own happiness. my happiness belongs to me right now, there aint a lot of it to share around, so i guess it's time that i refill these pockets of mine. kan? it isnt anyone's fault (but mine?) that i am just one clueless airhead that doesnt know anything. that is what i shoud've change a looong time ago. maybe im pushing myself but, right now it's better than not doing anything at all.

by the way, im tired of being depressed & angry all the time. angst = teenager. not for 20 year-olds anymore. the only person who could get rid of all this is me. or else i wont grow (hahh..not the first time i heard this!! :D)

oh weeeeeell....so therefore, i will turn myself from this,

to this,

jessica rabbit...

ahahahahhahahahaahhah :P :P :P :P

gotta love her :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

update! ;D

2009-03-27T00:41:00.004+08:00

1. my hair's straighten, rebonded & i have fringe. curious?? next post la pict. :P

2. still not working. no surprise there LMAO im pathethic, but am still cute. ^_____________________________^ i will slap myself later. hmm..im still struggling thru dis one. but im optimistic!!

3. i am confused, hurt, & feeling casted away right now. no surprise either eh? im destined somehow for negativity. optimistic, yes :D

4. discovery!! my cats penjealous rupanya. pantang, kami makan dia pun mau. kami ketawa drg pun lompat2 mau attention. olololoooo.

5. im totally in an experimenting mode. no boundaries, trying everything new =) hehe

6. ok, i want everyone to know this. if ur a girl, & me being friends with ur boyfriend bothers the fuck out of u, tell me straight out & i'll leave both of u alone. if ur a boy, & me being friends with u pisses the heck outta ur girlfriend, dont waste my time k? dont drag me into ur issues. i know how i am, i have seen how a person is intentionally wanting attention that it disrupts a relationship, or it bothers either one, the guy or the girl; but i am not THAT GIRL. that kind of BITCH ruined my life (momentarily) before & i swore that THAT is what i DONT want to be.

7. there'll be more potty-mouthing, & they're not sugar-coated hehe. ERHEM. im 21 years old, becoming 22 soon. ive pretty much seen a lot of people by now. & experience quite a few things. so i'll know a MORON when i see one. try not to judge me as the baby-faced soft-spoken hannah all the time. i can be the in-ur-face hannah too.

8. i have a BEDHEAD SMUDGIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i'll stop being angry & start being grateful for the good things that happened recently.

must...keep...eyes...open.....

2009-03-15T17:52:00.002+08:00

i haven't slept since my last post. since last night. since 9pm last night. slept for only an hour & a half people. & now im at WAR.

i cannot sleep. i absolutely cannot let myself sleep.

1. im not at home.

2. im at a cc in center. friggin' long story.

remember that jinx i mentioned in my previous post? as expected....no tarian. gee, that just makes it easier for me to leave for danum then huh? bye bye tarian. stayed my ass awake for nothing. oh shoot me. anyone please.

when i just planned to sleep my ass off, at 7am my mom announced,

"Let's go to gaya street with uncle shahrin & the family!"

wokay, that sounds ok. a few hours is ok i guess. then maybe i can sleep after that.

we.....eventually left the house at nearly 10am. ok, i can still hold on. boleh ba ni. more than 12 hours awake. i can handle this.

k, chapter 2.

i couldnt send my spm results to my uncle (waaahhh what a surprise) so had to meet up with my cousin d cp. & i had (or so i thought) training at 2pm in asia city. since i was already in kk, went to gaya street with the shahrin clan, so i thought it was a good idea to stay in kk. i wont be able to wake up if i went home & have a little nap. what was i thinking? dammit. wat. was. i. thinking.

2pm. studio. EMPTY. maybe it was naive of me to expect that they would inform me if there was no training. maybe i was just supposed to know when there was no training. like mind reading. @_@

so i am stuck here in kk, more than 20 hours being awake, waiting for my parents to pick me up while they're in tuaran with the shahrin family.

my insomnia's starting to get really serious now. i mean, it wouldnt matter much that me not having enough sleep causes me fatigue & all, coz if i was informed & told of what i need to know, dis wouldn't have to happen.

if i was really dancing, dis is nothing. ive done this before. but seriously, this the most terrible day of my LIFE. nope, its not when i broke up with whats-his-face, its not when i see her & him in front of me & my so-called friends stayed static, it is THIS. im totally babbling. dammit im sleepy.

nasib la cousin ku ada tau. haih.

klu nda, basah ni keyboard kena air liur basi. hm. sekian, terima kasih.

i cant come up with anything intelligent for my title

2009-03-15T04:19:00.004+08:00

& neither do i have much to say in my post MIAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!! im just updating doodadoodadoooooodaaaaaaa~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

wat hav i been up to...waaaat hav iiiii beeeeeeen up tooooooooooooooo................

well...

i guess.......

NOTHING!!!!!!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

i made cookies? yahh hannah...u wrote bout dat already....

im confused bout where to work? yeah yeah..same old same old...no wonder nobody reads ur blog hannah...buweekkk :P :P :P :P :P

im right now super sensitive? dis will be depressing. no.

nahh...i got nothing. i didnt do much these past few days. yesterday i was supposed to take this exam for an insurance exam (YIKES!!) which was postponed to april 11th (whew..~) & yesterday too, i was supposed to already start my driving lisence, but...ahh...all growny uppy things are jinxed to me; i cant do any of them. ada2 ja. or maybe im the one that's jinxed 0_________0 wo......kay. dont even get me started on working. but i promised myself i wont think about working or watever today. i want think clever today. i want happy & dont sad. hah. ahahah. hahaaaa.

oh yeah, i was supposed to send my spm results to my pacik pol today too, but nahh, dat didnt happen...too. gosh. berapa banyak baaaaaa benda nda settle ni. it does get to u, u noe?

dis....dis....dis is not good for my chronic idiopathic urticaria. im not supposed to even be stressed out people. IM ALLERGIC TO IT. @_@

im supposed to send it before monday la, not a big deal at all. but but but, if my jinx right here stops its malicious streak, i am supposed to be busy today @_@ i am supposed to dance maybe? which mean pacik pol would have to kick my ass coz i wont be able to send him my spm results. but i absolutely do not want to put that (me possibly being busy) into today's planning or even hope that it happens. this jinx seems unstoppable.

apart from all of that, im fine & healthy & just chilling out at my home while blissfully being lazy & having too much sleep :D yeah. dat about describes everything.

oh wait. im gaining weight as i speak. wait, there's something wrong with that phrase.

im gaining weight as i blog. haha! not funny? ok.

so, how has ur week treating u? feel free to share it with me. & in doing so, u probably will add more misery in my life.

happiness!!! u'll add more happiness in my life!!!!!!!! happy. ness. not misery. sorry bout that. slip of the tounge huhu. err finger. my finger slipped. oh whatever.

*slowly rolling eyes*

hehahaha "personality" tests

2009-03-08T05:26:00.008+08:00

ngeheh....i went to amesz's blog, & jumpala website filled wit personality tests :D

nden nden nden...

i took la the quiz that she took, plus...........50 others? :D :D :D :D :D :D

man were they interesting aaaahahhahahaha!!!

some were accurate, some just made me laugh my intestines off.

yg ini,

what's on ur mind?
& the result was,
You think money and love are equally important. You have an interest in many things in life, and work hard to ensure that you maintain a healthy balance between work, play and love. However, you tend to be unable to decide on what you really want to do with your life. You wouldn't dream of leaving your loved one for one or two million dollars, but you would have to reconsider if the offer rose to 100 million dollars.

dat is exactly on my mind, if u read my other posts @_@ i noe, im selfish =/ but like it says,

"maintain a healthy balance between work, play & love"

so im trying to balance it all out!! hee~ =)

the clothes u wear

What others see from your style
You wear whatever you please, you are probably confident, stubborn, strong-minded and independent. Deep down, however, you think that you are being excluded from society. You wish you belonged, but as you don't, you're going to follow your own rules.
What your nightclothes reveal
You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.
What others see from your ties
You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.
What others see from your belts
You tend to be outspoken and even aggressive. You either love or hate people, ideas and things. You can sometimes find facing the truth difficult and are an extremely confident person.
What others see from your shoes
You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.
What others see from your earrings
You are a hardworking people. You are serious and capable. You know what you want out of life, and you go after it.
The last analysis
You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

one thing's right,

"you wish u belong, but as you don't, you're going to follow your own rules"

HELL YEAAAHHHH!!!! i can be a chameleon, tukar2 warna kulit demi sama tema dgn persekitaran, but im my own person ^_^

interesting...i didnt noe earrings can show how hardworking u r :D :D :D :D :D :D but i like the results for this =)

favorite place in your home
Here is the analysis:
You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

"You attract people just by the way you talk"

that's coz they haven't heard me burp & fart LMAO..AHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

no one's jealous of me u idiot

your sixth sense

Your Sixth Sense Score: 73%
You are reasonable and won't get blown by temptations. However, you might miss some great opportunities.

u made me answer 20 friggin' qs & this is all u got? sudala results nda besh. cis.

the most miserable situation

dis quiz will tell u kind of person u r by choosing which one is the most miserable situation for u.

my analysis,

You are basically a person who enjoys reminiscing.
You are a very emotional person indeed, easily influenced by people and your surroundings. For example, if society is sad about the death of famous people, you will share these sentiments, or when watching a sad movie, you will be so engrossed that you will end up being sadder than the main actors in the movie.
YOUR LOVE
Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?

...... *speechless* oh ur good. this one is...100% accurate :P i love reminiscing on those good old times =) =) =) my childhood is as clear as yesterday ^_____^

i am SENSITIVE!!!! BETUL NI BA!!!!! especially bout the movie part..u should've seen me & amesz watching marley & me TTT_______TTT hint: our shirts' colars were wet..... :P

i am confused, im aware of this xP

what's in the cave?
Here is the analysis:
You are emotional. If the opportunity arises, you have a chance to cheat on your boyfriend/girlfriend.

o.......kay...u noe, ur putting ideas into my head witout me even thinking it :D adaaaala jd unfaithful ni...but i gotta find an unlucky b*stard first :P miahahahhahahah!!!

i put a link into those quizzes, be welcome to try em :D

hahh ni la ba klu tgh boring, apa2 ja pun layan :D :D :D

wokehh bisuk si dang minah haji johari pnya anak kawin...my third cousin...yg aku bru tau..dia...kazen aku :D :D :D :D

sleeep sleep sleep sleep

zzzzZZzzzZZzzZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZZzzz....

Guilty of at least 5!! :D

2009-03-05T23:55:00.002+08:00

his name is Julian Smith, & these are the 25 things he hates about Facebook :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

sarcastic as it is, THIS IS SO FUNNY!!!!

who's a facebook junkie & proud of it, RAISE UR HANDS!!!!!!!!!! lol

k im gonna go now.

i went a lil overboard T___T

2009-03-05T18:44:00.004+08:00

i am so fickle.

i like, change every two seconds.

i realized that my anger (from previous post) is totally unfair. anger maybe, but to throw my thoughts up to a point where i dont considerate others' feelings, especially my loved ones really just makes me a MORON.

probably there was another reason for this; i have been sleeping a lil too much...pms? T___T

anyway, my parents r a bit possessive right now & i can understand why; aku ni anak dorang, bukannya setakat kenalan ja. it makes me feel really bad & guilty to be thinking & saying the stuff here. but, i am only human, i can get angry too. this is like what, the umpteenth time i mention dis? but seriously, there's no excuse for me saying wat i did, thank goodness its only in my personal online diary where they dont read it, instead of me going to another tantrum & yelling all those stuff. GOSH. that would've been terrible.

i remembered when i was in kuantan, i desperately thought of home & wanted so bad to stay here; i was so sure that everything will be fine, i'll be most happy here, with my dear family & friends; & now im not gonna let my impulsive self change my mind all the time. yeah, things might not go according to plan but i just got to make do with watever is given to me. right?

it helps tho in this dillema i feel; i think i can make a good decision when im not all angry & tantrumatic.

danum? or kk?

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Turmoil strikes again. Argh.

2009-03-04T04:58:00.004+08:00

hello. im going to babble.

im so stressed out i feel like i can speak german. LOCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOCCCCCCCCCCCHHH SHEERERRRRRRKKKKHHHHH TU BAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *kasi gegar2 tekak*

T_T

okay. isi pertama.

i went for an interview with yayasan sabah last monday, for the post of this secretariat thingy la. i didnt even noe wat i was interviewing for until i...was..interviewed :P & so, i got good feedback from the interviewers regarding my results & resume compare to the one dat was full of shit with STB. it made me feel elated & a bit happy la. sepa nda happy kena recognize gitu?

ok. then, they told me, my place was in Danum or Maliyau, where all the tourism activities r better compare to the ones in kk. instead of interviewing me for the actual post in yayasan sabah tu, they were suggesting me to go to danum & telling me how good it was.

the lady said "sayang oh experience ko ni"

2nd lady "fits better dgn ko pnya background & apa yg ko buat time praktikal ko"

cute dude wit gorgeous dimples "sana byk jugak officer perempuan tu. so its safe for a girl"

whew. dude, wit ur looks, u can say cow dung taste good & i'll believe u :D :D :D :D

erhem. back to me being depressed.

so, it made me consider bout going there; the offer was tempting. the job was perfect & i know i'll enjoy wat i'll be doing. all i had to do was contact the ladies (& hopefully the dude :P) & i can go there whenever i want!!!!!!!

but, thing is, ive already started doing things here in kk :( im taking a takaful insurance exam soon dat my uncle sponsered for & im already in a dance group even tho i havent performed yet.

me going to danum or maliyau wud mean me abondoning those things; its not as terrible as it sounds, but i have already agreed to my uncle's request on helping him build up dis takaful branch, & he has full confidence on me.

im new to the dance group, & im lucky i already have a placing in at least 2 of the dances, & I was the one who wanted to be in it so badly, i was the one looking for them & suddenly, i bail?

*sigh*

i dont wanna look back & remembered dat i regretted something. i dont wanna be looking back at something i wanted to do but didnt. & so i held that thought; i wanted to still think about it. i havent made up my mind yet after the interview, i waited untill when i can discuss it wit my parents.

right.

here's the second one.

i wasn't allowed to go to danum. (?????????????????????????????????????)

watha.......?

ok. im being a bad daughter & wat not, so BITE ME.

after the interview, i told my dad bout the danum thing. & dat i think me, my mom & him should discuss about it at home. i thought, i was allowed to make my own decisions. i thought, the reason i did not take up my degree so soon was that so i can take better opportunities outside a campus.

i thought........didnt it......? wasnt it dis?? HELLO?????????????????????

my mom & dad did discuss. wit themselves. while i was happily sleeping & oblivious. when i woke up, it hurts to see that they reached a decision without hearing me out. i was given the "pleading tone" again that i hate so much.

"but in danum...."

"u wont be able to dance..."

"hannah suda start sini ba kan..."

i wasnt given a choice. i knew wat it all meant. one parent dropping the subject, another parent convincing me to stay. i feel kinda betrayed dat i didnt even get to have a say in this matter. i feel so angry & stressed out that my decision & wat i wanted seems like it doesnt matter.

so i rebelled. i still stood my ground bout considering danum. it was harsh, but it was what i wanted. confused as i am on wat choice i would make, i didnt want anyone to make my choice for me untill i asked for it.

but i guess i wasnt the only one who wouldn't give up.

"hannah, kerjala d kk. **** mau hannah kerja d sini" dis is still ok.

"i want to see u dance" danum. im still thinking but danum.

"if i couldn't dance, im happy to see u" im not changing my mind.

"all the macik2 pun bangga tu tgk hannah"

oooooohhhhh PLEEEEEEEEEEEAAAASSSSSSEEEEEE LAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we're using relatives now? dat me leaving just to work in danum effects the whole entire family tree now??????????????????????????????????????

kill me.

isi ketiga.

i dont wanna be tied down. though i occasionally miss the feeling of having a significant other, im single & happy. i do not wanna have that much of a commitment yet when ur making decisions for two. when anything u do, means dat ur doing it together.

but seriously. i feel like im married with my family. the way i see it, it doesnt have to be dis much. i have to be responsible towards my family, i noe dat, but not up to a point where i feel SUFFOCATED. wat was the point of making me go to pahang & let me learn independence, & then putting me 3 steps backwards? why?

dis is a feeling i do NOT need at the moment. can anyone see that? im not 12. in the end, it wasnt about danum. its about what i want. i probably wouldnt go to danum if i was actually given the time to think about it. i noe im selfish but i am of age to do dat, aren't i? i do not want to be forced into doing something. i wanna be able to make my own decisions.

i want to LIVE. *sigh* i cant please everyone.

this song is so beautiful.....

2009-03-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

ive been replaying it over & over again dari semalam ni ba. i noe...HORSES?? but seriously, after a few seconds, then the haunting melodies really get u @_@

dark, love, sadness, its all in there. for me at least.

aaaaaaa...awkward T_T

2009-02-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

as some of u already know (eh jap...amy ja kali LOL!!) aku....hehe...getek...p join menari punya group :D :D :D :D :D apaituh...the name of the group is Creative Arts Sabah, & ketua group tu senior all saints la kan...c ken, sepa ingat?? budak pengakap hohahaha

as much as i love dancing tho, dat awkwardness between the dancers & me's too great @_@

awkward awkward awkward...and TOMOROW ADA TRAINING!!!!! TT____TT

i hate being the newbie, seriously...plus, my sumazau makes sabahans erm..."proud"

karas, sumbang, ganjil,...erm...karas... (-_______-)

my awkwardness towards the group is bigger than my seriousness...adala kena buang ni nnt sebab....nda.....serious :D :D :D :D

i keep laughing at myself during previous training...trus....drg tgk ja aku ni dgn pandangan "kenapa budak ni?" hahahaaaa...lawak ba aku tgk diri ku ini d cermin 0_o yg...lawak ni... LOL

oh, dont get me started on my weight...the girls r SUUUUUPER SLIM & then BOOM. big ol fat me. iyah. thank u thank u!! ^____^

so hipotesisnya, jika hannah boring, maka dia kan merepek. sekian terima kasih.

I REFUSE TO SLEEP!!!

2009-02-28T02:43:00.004+08:00

dunno. i probably want to do something extraordinary first. then i can sleep happily. weird. @_@

just noooooooooooooow i went out spontaneously with amesz to Mcd to mengumpatsss & beceritaaaaaarrrrrkkkkkksss :D :D :D :D :D

girl, I MISS U A LOT GILAAAAAAAA!!!!! AHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!! lagu dangdut tu ba....hastagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! & SOUR CHERRY!!!! CUTE!!!!!!!!

aku jahat buahahahaha she had an assignment to do! & i brought her out for a Mcflurrrrrry miahahahahahaahhahahaha (ni kali yg bikin aku hyper...sugar overdose)

but really really really sorry for that distraction my :D :D :D :D :D if u want any help wit dat assignment, i'll be glad of assistance!! ^_____^

i have a duty to perform jugak before im allowed to sleep. kena suruh guring ikan @___@ baiklah.

kena suruh kasi bersih fridge. there's a month old plastic full of pisang goreng in there. tu yg dry food. yg wet, nda payah la ah. inda decent ROFL (- -,)

wash socks & underpants...MEN'S socks & underpants..im a maid xD

& lastly, anu.....painin....aaahhhh itu ja la

ketara ba teda idea mau blog. sajaaa ja ni ba T___T

wokehlaaah. i got to babysit. im lending my ears here :D :D :D if u noe wat i mean...taraaaa!

im getting married soon...~ blush

2009-02-27T02:22:00.005+08:00

On July 5th, on my little brother's birthday, will be the day that i will become a Mrs. =) i know, its all pretty surprising, im so surprised myself as it was just confirmed minutes ago, but its really happening a few weeks from now. & im so excited =)

I CANT WAIT TO GET MARRIED!!! =) ive always been envious towards young couples who have dedicated themselves to each other at such an early stage of life to get married & it not being a burden at all. ive always envied how they were sure that they found their soul mates in their youths; well now i can finally feel how it is to be in their shoes. gosh, im just SO happy ^____^

oh! how very very inconsiderate of me. here i am babbling away withour introducing my lucky guy =) i just recently met him, dat's why u haven't heard anything about my love life at all, bcoz, it is so sudden u know. u cant help but just believe that it was love at first sight hehe ;) his name is....

JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS.

hahahahhahah

hahhahahahha

hahahahahhahaahah

hahahahahahah

hahahahahhahahahahah

hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

i would NOT get married before 28 years old if i could help it. man, im just SO bored.

TTT_______________________TTT

=(

2009-02-25T15:18:00.003+08:00

something i wanna do...

BUT I CANT

& tonight was no exception

2009-02-25T01:32:00.005+08:00

hahahahahahahahah!! addicted ni baaa...

now, dis cam whore, its not dat he looks good coz of the picture, the picture looks GOOD coz of him :D if u get wat i mean. wish i could do more but aku...blum ckup terer ;P

nama ini budak na-ila. dia comel. dia sarcastic. dia umpama kesakitan di bahagian punggung. itula dia.

now dis sure is messy. but i LIKE :D :D :D :D so wallflower-ish. *note* gmbar tu, saya tengah baring di luar lobby yayasan sabah pada jam 10:43 malam.

hahhhh i like dis kind of editting. it can be dark & potray joy at the same time ^_____^

good news eberibodi!!! i am now not obsessed wit naruto!!!! :D

but am now...obsessed...wit...photoshop T____T sama jugak tipu dia.

ini EMEEEEH!!! :D :D :D

2009-02-24T22:09:00.004+08:00

when im into sumthing,

i dont stop. hehahahahahahah.

original copy:

1st try:

and then i played with brushes:

and then, overlay & textures:

ehehheheheheheh ITU SAHAJA!!!

sekian terima kasih.

i'm a BABY

2009-02-24T06:53:00.005+08:00

soooo...after having my sleep pattern going normal, screwed it up again by staying up till now

(-____________________________-")

baiklah.

my body was just shocked at how its owner became fickle at being so lazy that i (literally) grew roots to my bed (meaning tu pot aku la, sana ja aku kalau ko mau cari :D) and suddenly dancing from morn till the evening? (sumazau saya karas. next post.) that after sleeping till the afternoon, i slept again in the evening.... ;P

so what i did was...well, dis is wat i've been doing besides browsing for hot actors ^__^

is looking for tutorials on photoshop!!!

adobe photoshop is my nemesis; we dont get along. AT ALL. like elton john & george micheal. kay dats weird. like pickles & peanut butter. hahh better :D

its only recently dat i got the courage to face my fears;

the ever million buttons & functions of photoshop.

ew.

ERHEM!!!

but ive got to say im over it i guess :D still think photoscape & picnik is alrite. im trying here im tryiinnngg..! like the title, im still a beginner (- -,)

from the first tutorial i got, i made this:

buahahahahaha. not much but i like dark dark dark moods of a pict & i guess i did make myself look like ur worst nightmare. so thus, i am satisfied :D :D :D :D i didnt do frames & stuff, malaaaas. (pdhal nda pndai)

im really liking this all dark art whore thing :D :D :D *quoted by the person who posted the tutorial* DIS IS AMESZ BTW!!!!! ngeheeeeeeeehehehehhehehehehe. man. i love doing those kinda eyes. haaaahhh (mau pingsan) again, a simple pict, editted it the same way i did for the 1st pict, which is more complimentory for dis one tho. WHOO!!!

and the one that took the most time, is this...................*silent*

i....could...make...pictures....like dis.......using.......microsoft....picture....editor..... TTTT_______TTTT

but it does a clean effect to it, no noise, & dis kinda editting is meant to do a pin-up style to ur pict, & i choose the wrong pict, so memang, indefinitely, kesalahan sendiri ROFL!!!!!!!

okay, im done now. time to sleep. im gonna gain more jiggly wigglies on my tushie if i keep dis up. hoahahaha.

kaaaaay time to sleep.

i....erm...

2009-02-22T06:38:00.003+08:00

robert pattinson & taylor lautner ;P

@_# they get along good dont they? :D

is it me? or are they really like the twilight characters they're playing?

erm...err..

note to self:

indulged in pop culture when in denial

ACCOMPLISHED.

Presenting...Mr. Roach

2009-02-20T10:20:00.005+08:00

I know. Im BEYOND weird & crazy.... ROFLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

saya okay

2009-02-20T05:09:00.003+08:00

triumph!! happy happy joy joy! i like my blog.

time will tell; indeed it needs more pictures & decorations. my vainness won't fail me. if i ever had that! :D sudah tiba masanya untuk angkat bakul sendiri *clears throat*

hahahhaa.

the past two days of my life was a turmoil; im not bluffing, look at my previous posts. from being confused to angry to enraged; i was a MESS. people warned to not let your right hand know what ur left hand did, & so, i'll leave out my tantrumatic details. the things i did wasnt pretty (muahahahhahahaha) but of course, only when i am happy do i take the moment for granted & thus, it slips my mind so ndala terblog...! ya, dis is wat dis post is about ;)

in my time of tantrumness, my best friend amesz membawa ku berjalan :D uwwaaaaa i missed her gila ni & so cured la sikit ini perasaan marah2 ini huahaha. the curios benjamin button was something; & i wouldn't pick a better company! MYYYYY!!!! SYIIIUUUKKK!!!! we ate lambchops, talked a lot, & the best part besides the watching the movie was meeting our old senior d Port View!!!!!!!!! was glad she was there with me to meet my future "future" ehehehe. nnt la explain. & then nda puas lg becerita, stay lg d mcd drive thru duduk2 makan2. for the whole day, what was worrying & disturbing me was slowly fading smpai dia tggl 3/4 ja. the posts i made before, all those makin lama makin aku nda ingat ^___^ AMESZ I LOVE U GIRL!!

as if that couldnt help me enough, yesterday i went to kk wit a bus to meet my cousin. smpai ja d kk ketawa sudah :D turun ja d bustop, tu konduktor bas p tgk org d bustop ni trus tgk aku smbil senyum dan buat "thumbs up". heran la aku. sekali aku tgk di depan...alalalala cumil jua pacik ni. becicit suda kali. tgk2 aku smbil blushing. the sight was genuine that i find it funny :D nda marah ni terus. i walked a lot, a bit too much i guess, dat sweat built up on my head to create an army or dandruffs. baiklah.

oh. one more. ive added colour to my wardrobe!!! hehe. baju baruuuu muahahah. other than black & white, ive added purple & pink to the collection. yyyeeessss satu mission accomplished. & now that cherie's selling clothes online, i just have to pick what i want thru dis comp :D no salesgirl, no shops.

itulah dia, i have more reasons to be fine than being sour all the time. ^____^ im okay now. no tanrums. :D :D :D :D :D

compromise? not in my vocabs at the moment

2009-02-18T17:57:00.003+08:00

in nature, i am a happy go lucky person. im always happy. happy happy happy happy happy. like im always smiling the whole time. nothing can break me.

WRONG.

being angry cant be associated wit me at all; im always called THE NICE ONE, THE GOOD ONE, well newsflash.

I CAN GET IRRITATED

i can be agitated

my cup of coffee can get stirred

i can be angry

no one seems to take me seriously

& till dat time comes, which i think never will,

im gonna go on a rampage if i feel like it

i dont like it i'll say something

IM HUMAN

not some comfort shoulder to ease up ur guilt or anything, please

i haven't said this in a while

I HATE EVERYTHING AT THE MOMENT

makes pregnant women like saints compare to my mood swings.

AAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!

damn. cant enjoy my lambchop. upperstar babi.

i guess u can call dis....adulthood?

2009-02-18T03:33:00.002+08:00

damn. my worries....urgh. i feel so bad, tired, angry, & useless. here's the thing. ya, ive been away to pahang for a good 3 years to experience some freedom dat i cudnt when in kk. dont missunderstand; i cud see the world clearer & i cud make decisions on my own. there were some downside to it coz im an idiot. making mistakes now & then. but free from ur comfort zone expands ur horizons a bit; knowing more things, seeing the "outside" world. & then, it ended when my diploma did. i was happy. or so i think...? i guess i was. i AM happy being around the people i love but i dunno. the security i feel when in here is weaker than the one im feeling when im elsewhere.

wat im trying to say is simply this; i dont see anything ahead in my life that's good for me here in kk than somewhere else where i think i might have a better chance. I DUNNO.

cant make up my mind. one minute, i dont wanna leave, & the next my mind wandered off on its own to somewhere else other than my home...here. its the feeling & my need of accomplishing something that i failed to feed. i feel so hopeless. work, my interest & hobbies, wat i like doing; i cant achieve them here.

wat im saying is still vague; i know. only i can understand this. but to put it simply, im in between to being responsible & being selfish.

i have to stay at home. i cant ABANDON my family now & they need me =/ a lot more than i can explain here. taula, semua org ada masalah keluarga. i cant always think of myself all the time; its time for me to give back to my family of when they weren't thinking of themselves for my benefit. i know that. i soooo know that. i was pleaded to stay here. ='(

but i cant shake the feeling that i can be something i want, or maybe even better, in another place =/ ive seen how my close friends had their opportunities literally thrown at them. & me? i dunno. just cant be patient. its back & forth all the time; my mind & heart changes. its always either two but neither one. kimak.

at times, i feel like my responsibility feels like a f*cking burden. other times, my selfishness makes me feel disgusted at my self.

extreme kan? dis is me. deal with it.

in this comfort zone; i'd have to depend on my parents. its not a choice. elsewhere, id have to depend on others too but maybe not as much as in the comfort zone. im able to move freely & make my own decisions as i go but its not like that here. i have to be independent while being dependent. maybe im asking too much. entah la.

both things are still playing around my head. to sacrifice my dreams? or to carry out dreams of my loved ones?

this isn't fair; both for my loved ones and me.

will i grow up & make a mature decision or grow up backwards & try to compensate what i haven't had?

hmm...decisions decisions...................

well there u go :D

2009-02-17T16:03:00.004+08:00

NEW TEMPLATE!!!!!! not much tho, but id like it dat i finally settled on one. boy. RAMBANG MATA BUDU. muahahahhahahah!!!! i didnt now wat i want :D

might change it again LOL

(here is where i start writing SOLELY about my template scavenger hunt...mmg teda idea ngeehehe)

erhem! so, i didnt noe wat to choose at first, how i wanted my blog to look like. went to the usual graphic-cy ones at first, BUT THEY'RE BORING! & besides, my last template pun gitu juga rupa dia. went with something i cud put my vain picts in (o yeah, i hav tons of them) but i held back on dat thought entah napa; sumthing to do wit my perfectionist-afraid-to-make-a-mistake syndrome T______T went for the girly ones but.....eheh...im not wat u call a girly girl...i dont want my readers to get confused. MUAHAHA.

& so, i went wit sumthing dat suits with my old soul; bahahaha. ada kupi lg. dis is temporary i noe, nda lama ni...aku tukar lg ni tgk la.

before i go off, if its n0t too late, i wanna wish everyone a happy belated valentine's :D :D :D seems like everyone has sumthing to say bout dat particular day ;D & im going to read EACH & EVERY ONE OF THEM NOW!!

paning suda kan mencari template.

in need of a change again

2009-02-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

blog aku ni mau kena renovate balik! it doesnt stimulate my rusty brain anymore; im back to malas-mau-update-blog-sebab-nanti-tulis-benda-teda-teda-yang-orang-tidak-akan-baca phase. tidak best. ya, the broadband went out for a while but it wouldnt make a difference. still wouldnt update :D

in a deeper note, maybe, I'M the one that's wanting a change :D in my life, myself, my mood (swing..), my facial wash (i like amy's neutrogena scrub!!) & my choice of food..yes hannah, no more lokans. even kerang is giving u an effect smpai hari ni. not an entire 180 degree of change, no! 25 kali, or just 50, so as to make me feel as comfortable as i can in my own skin. & i mean both medically & spiritually.

i dont wanna waste away, so that all i have left's my bitterness >( ho yah....i can be very very sour. everyone has problems, im sooooo not an execption; u should see my list (- -,) and if that isnt already worse, theres the occasional external noises interrupting the parade that is my life which are uncontrollable; & i wanna be prepared.

i realized that life may seem like a straight unknown road, but if i was paying enough attention, detours offer itselves once in a while if i or even anyone wants (or needs, in my case) a change. my utmost biggest fear, besides to panic at making mistakes, is knowing that i should give up; there's no hope for me at a certain situation, & ahead is just dark. see my problem? detour. definitely.

soooooooooo! im gonna change a bit of my perceptions & views again. stored up emotions arent healthy, regardless if its hatred or love; too much & u'll go blind..so u know wat happens next T_T i can only distract myself from remembering hurtful & painful things; so i need to collect sunshine here & there & put it somewhere as big as a luggage bag in case it rained :]

p.s/ i was thinking about this a lot while staying at amesz's hostel & reading new moon :D MYYYY I LOVE UR HOSTEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha :D inpirasi ni ba keno ;)

just cause~

2009-02-06T01:17:00.004+08:00

tomorow is my interview with STB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

waaaahhh cant wait cant wait *lumpat2*

ive been waiting for this for a looooooooooooooong time

even having to wake up early gets moi excited~

ahh...

lemme say something

i am not nervous when it comes to an interview with a marketing executive of one of the highly recognizable tourism organization in this region

nope.

but i was nervous, & anxious, almost paranoid indeed

to send a letter to UiTM

all i had to do was fill up a convocation form; my name, ic no, address, & photostat my ic,

but i was so scared & terrified & conscious that i would make a mistake

that i ended up actually making...them....mistakes T______T

i bought the wrong envelope

i didnt photostat my ic right

i didnt photostat my ic YET when the form is already in a glued envelope

wrote my address wrong

doubled, tripled, quadrapled checked my particulars to find them still in errors

*enough..!*

great. another reason why im an oddball. xD

babah. agata tidur babunyyyyaaaaaaaaaaa.

ZZzzZZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzZZZZZzzzZ~~~~~~

note to self

2009-02-03T23:07:00.002+08:00

DO NOT DEPEND ON OTHERS (in the future)

INSIST ON NOT DEPENDING ON OTHERS NEXT TIME (for now)

BE INDEPENDENT (for the rest of ur life)

how i wish upon a star~ ;P

i want to be able to live well

i want to be able to make my kids live well

i want to be able to do things without guidance

i want to not be a pressure to anyone

i want to be able to afford what i want

i want to be able to do good deeds

i want to be able to naik haji more than once

most of all, i want to be able to get what i want without having to wait.

Women for power~! ;)

Youtubing

2009-01-31T01:22:00.005+08:00

people go clubbing,

people go jogging,

while i

love YOUTUBING. yes, youtubing =)

but im not a technosexual, no no, im comfortable socializing in person :D i dont need to hide behind a computer or a handphone that's for sure~ eheh

Youtubing is where i watch & find any vids that i might have an interest in; regardless if its familiar or not. could be anything!

& it has made me found some pretty good hidden stuff in there. lets take a short journey shall we? hehe

when i was on plane on the way back to kk i think, i read in the mag Going Places & found an interesting article:

"American Tribal Style (ATS) Bellydance Workshop; hosted by FCBD"

oooooooooh. now wats that? i made it a point to search it the moment i can lay my hands on the internet!!! *geek* hehaha! so basically, i found the ever burlesque & fascinating Rachel Brice, Zoe Jakes & Mardi Love, a group called The Indigo ^^

these ladies do not need to ooze out sensuality in their dances, they're mind-blowing enough! its not entirely shown in these vids la, u need to actually see a lot more then u'll noe :)

so, i became obssesed :D :D tribal fusion belly dance was alien to me so i got hypered up..heheheh!

& then, thru related vids i found this,

as usual, i was impressed by rachel brice's moves ^^ she's like a snake~* but then something else caught my attention. that song. is so beautiful! who sang it? what's the title? mcm best! & my prying eyes saw at the description "beirut - prenzlauerberg" hmmmm. so i typed in beirut,

oh dear *drooling* this dude is HOT! btw, i have already made a post about him. bahahahahha. their songs are so different, its sooo good. this band balkan inspired indie band is called beirut, & the frontman's name is zach condon. *he's hot*

so, what happens next was, this beirut vid that i found was for a thing called the Takeaway Show, featuring lots of other independent artists, & so i looked at the related vids. muahahaha morre good music!! & indie hotties :D

the kooks :D cumiiil astagaaaaa. i...did...blog bout this too *whistles* and then.....

=)) i like this song!! hehehehe. from bellydancers, to indie rockers. not bad eh? i love the indigo, & beirut (zaaaaaccch!!) & the kooks~!!!! hehehehehehhhehh!!!

this is a bored crazy person writing this post (^^)

trying to light a match

2009-01-30T20:26:00.008+08:00

*grrr* i am seriously geram nda dpt upload gmbar. it's stressful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u know that feeling of annoyance & tension & anger & unaccomplished & pissed at the same time? gitula. rasa. dia.

probably other things has contributed to that. but that's another story. =/

i am mentally tired =( & the picts was supposed to turn my mind in peace but instead, TT_____TT ish. its was something dat i was looking forward to =(

hahh. u noe wat? i have dis habit of mine. im paranoid of wat people'll think towards anything i do. so, wat im gonna do now is say....i know wat ur thinking :D apa ba masalah perempuan ni kan muahahhahahah :D :D :D gmbar ja ba kaaaaaaaaan

but im a simpleton, simple things can cheer me up :)

& now, for the moment, hopefully blogger's photo uploader works, let's seeeeeeee getek picts of me muahahahahahahha :D :D :D

heheee i love my new jeans ^^ location : kasih sayang resort! i tried taking a picture of myself thru my own reflection in a mirror~ seemed liked a good idea. till i freaked myself out when the camera suddenly slow-shuttered (it hasnt before) & i already mentally prepared my apology speech for my dad for ruining his office cam (- -,) ngehehhh...but actually, woowww a discovery! bulih pulak di tmpat galap2 dia slow, tampat tarang2 inda!!! adidiiihhhh...neh palui~ i noe that this isnt even qualified to be called a good pict sebab dia gerak2 & shapeless but i like it ;) (^.^)v *peace!* I LIKE IT SO MUCH!

another one of my fav ^^ dis was at tjg aru beach! taken just recently, it was the usual keluaring & lepaking wit my loved ones =) present was amesz, raef, yohan, & lil bro ami!!! while ami was occupied smsing a mysterious lady sms-er & the others talking & laughing, kerana daku tidak dilayan, i took these picts using a timer & they turned out nice :D :D :D editted it a bit & combined them; peek-a-boo la kononnya..ngahahakk~! this is one of my effort to being an aspiring FARTographer. yeah. i edit pictures & im cool. NOT. =P =P =P

one word. NERDY!!!!!!!! woh mai gat. i didnt know i could still smile like this after form 3... ^___^ my dear momma took this picture & i tried to look all fiYyerce & pouty but she told me to smile & thus...this came out =) but after looking at it for a while, this pict's special to me ;) it was that one moment where i think a real part of me was taken in a pict ^^ me not trying to look pretty :D :D :D just smiling at the sight of me mamaaaa *awwwww* and she said, it was my most sincere smile ever ;)

presenting Hannah the Clown a.k.a. MJ...LOL! baaaahahahaha!!! well now, the letters MJ means something else to me *erhem*, & it is ALL me. i created it, i made it, & i am IT. (well, the maciks & anggota came wit the nickname :D) for those who know me well knows wat im talking about :D the monumental moment of my life was the 1 minute & 30 seconds during the maleks new year gathering :D :D :D at the catwalk competition..........i was.......& am.......& always will be......the....MODEL JULING. terima kasih. wanna see the vid?? *my mama took dis pict..love u mama!!*

did i run out of pictures.........? yes i did (- -,) this is it for now, but im soooooooooo gonna write some more & post more pictures!!! depends on those lightbulb ideas of course ^^ they come & go ya noe *ive been staying at home too long...sigh* ahah! this did cheer me up! ;) if u did read dis post, id like to say thank u (really) for spending ur time to read my spoiled-bratty post; if u didnt, its okay. im still AWESOME. eheeeeeh. u noe u love me :D :D :D :D

till theeeen. byebyeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

wait. dont tell me the only way i can show those pictures are thru uploading them in blogger?? that's insane. byknya tuuuuu. amy, tggu ah, bodoh ba broadband ni skrg klu nda, cni ja ni aku upload. ym pun palui :D :D :D

borotband ini bodoh

2009-01-30T19:47:00.002+08:00

astaga. i want to upload getek picts of me & my friends laaaaaaaaaaa ='(

i dont know wat the heck possesed dis stupid broadband, but i cant seem to upload my picts!!!!!! in facebook, let alone friendster...I CANT EVEN LOG IN!!!!!

ok2, i know. they're just online socializing websites. buuuuuuuuuuut but but but ='(

alalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i wanna share them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant see my own photo albums!!!!!!! going to other's profile lmbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

='( ='(

my bp....has increased >:( *buwekk*

psst~ kasih sayang resort is CORRUPT @_@

2009-01-29T09:59:00.006+08:00

holidaaaaay holidaaaaayyy holidaaaaayyy!!!! ;)

yes, its the chinese new year holidaaaaays which means.....ENJOYYYY!!!!! (err...not...go on read the rest)

the maleks family planned a getaway to this kasih sayang resort on the 25th. it's in inanam, nama kmpung dia im not sure but it is near kionsom waterfall.

man, was i excited!!!! me & my mom made cookies (lots of them..i mean...A LOT!) let's see, in all, adala 350 biji cookies kami buat & a tall jar of kuih batang buruk ^^

everything was going great, everyone especially the working ones were happy to be there as it was meant to be a getaway, me n my mom's cookies made everyone girigitan ^^ makan ramai2, becerita ramai2...

till it started.

hospitality no-no #1:inconsistency of electric power flow

T_____________________T

have u ever heard of a resort or a hotel or even a cheap motel, not having electricity?

in their own words,

"nanti dalam pukul 3 teda letrik ni. tu generator blah blah kamu kena blah blah nanti off tu water heater jgn guna"

"its these people who's doing the roads ah, they just simply crash anything in their way while at it & mess up the blah blah electricity"

astaga. kejap ada, kejap teda

TTT____________________TTT

not only that. even the reasons change

*hmmmmm*

hospitality no-no #2:tell guests to leave early so new guests can go in

we were told to do so, but of course, we weren't told why, but we do know why.

except, the time we were told to check out was...

11 am.

???????????????????????????????????????????????????????

seriously, the earliest time to check out is 12, when u have more guests coming & u need to clean the rooms & stuff. but 11?

its an hour ja diference dia but we didnt pay 150++ to have ourselves rushing & packing the minute we had our breakfast.

oh yah. it was at 10 am. at 10 am, they told us to leave in an hour. T_____T

macam......fishy.

*whispers*

jangan p sana ui. rugi.

Sorry? Ur sorry?

2009-01-20T05:54:00.003+08:00

damn. even to those who doesn't watch the news everyday, like me, are aware of the war in Gaza. & u would know that Israel's the one causing the havoc. or should i say, the sufferings.

NO.

that's not it. what word would best fit a baby's mother being brutally killed? that's if the babies aren't killed first. what about people seeing their own friends & relatives flying around & their body parts burst to pieces? other than the usual everyday dialogs we hear in the radio & tv, their everyday sounds are screams of agony, pain, & death. our concerns are of bills & sort; while theirs are to survive or be killed.

so, what word best fits this?

as i was doing my daily chores, washing the dishes after dinner, my parents as its their routine, watches the news & wants to know of the updates on Gaza. i didn't really wanted to watch graphic images of what's happening, it saddens me. but i was confounded by words said by an Israeli person; i do not know what his position is on Israel.

"I'm Sorry"

say what? ur sorry? UR SORRY?

*speechless*

ps: i may be passive about this but i'm not oblivious. i don't know what's going on there but they have my prayers, even tho its a small one. i may be late when it comes to realization but at least, i have.

4 Things

2009-01-17T07:28:00.008+08:00

4 Favourite Ice Cream Flavours When Eating Out of a Papercup:

1. Vanilla
2. Mint
3. Corn
4. Strawberry

4 Taboo Songs to Hear When Looking at School Pictures:

1. Dr. Bombay - Calcutta
2. Toy Box - Tarzan & Jane
3. Too Phat - Anak Ayam
4. Wilson Philips - Hold On

4 Reasons to Love a Rain on a Saturday Morning

1. an excuse to listen to psychotically sad love songs
2. don't have to do the laundry, the clothes won't dry
3. its so somber, makes you think that your British
4. any day is the same as another but things'll feel extra special on saturday

4 Movies to Watch When Unwanted Thoughts of an Ex Comes to Mind

1. Saw 1
2. Saw 2
3. Saw 3
4. Saw 4 (adaka...?)

4 Types of Food That Reminds Me of My Cats

1. Sunquick drink
2. Marble Cake
3. Kari Ayam
4. ais krim yg berwarna putih coklat

4 Reasons Why I Did This

1. Just because
2. Avoid chores
3. Bored
4. Cant find reasons why I shouldn't LOL :D

#3 post: hahahahahaha!!

2009-01-16T01:51:00.005+08:00

aku punya blog marathon kununnya...TIDAK MENJADI

*ROFLing*

kin kesian~

everytime i sit my butt in front of this here pathetic laptop, it just gets someone to tell me to do stuff :D

"hannah, iron baju kaliff"

"hannah, mawi kawin!"

"hannah, mana beg papa yg warna grey kecik2 di sini depan tv ni?"

"hannah, hannah nda mau tgk naruto?"

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

hehehehehehehehehe.

i wanted to pour out a BUNCH of stories & sort from this nagen of mine. there were so much it felt like there were voices in my head....! lol

ooooooooooooooooh some memories before 2008 ended, what i did when 2008 ended, some thoughts that i had lately, silly things i realized about myself, aaahh u knoe how it goes with personal blogs. its also one of those sudden light bulb moments where ur ideas r gone after half an hour T___T

oh well. ;P

hahahaha

ps: YUQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISSED U GUYS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! best kan buat cookies tu =) we'll do some more nanti =) =) =)

#2 post: I LOVE MAKING COOKIES

2009-01-14T07:59:00.003+08:00

yesterday i made the cutest, funnest, bestest, no one can beat-est cookies EVER!!! well, compare to the ones that i have made before at least =P ya ampun. YA AMPUNNN! for those that has been in my house knows that it is notorious for having food all over the place. kan my kan? kan awa? ira? aan? ^^

IMAGINE!!!!!! white heavenly cookies, minutes before entering the oven, is poured with vanilla essence so the smell & flavour doesn't evaporate, and molded into miniature donut shapes....HEEEEEEHEHEHEHEH!!!!! and they're so crispy it hurts!! argh!!!
with royal icing deco...ngehehehehehehe...okay, so u domestic ladies might hav guessed that it's mama carries punya recipe, but but BUT! the deco~ white, true blue, pastel purple, apple green, deep red and rose pink :D :D :D :D

THEY ARE SO CUTE!!!!! me n my lil bro ami made swirls, heartshapes, little dots, wavy lines, & so many different shapes combining 2 or 3 colours making them look like TOYS!!! dat we didnt have the heart to actually eat them LOL!!

i spent the whole day baking & decorating those cookies yesterday that i didnt eat...the entire day hahahaha! :D :D :D THAT WAS SO FUN!!!!

#1 post: I'm not afraid of u 09!!!

2009-01-13T15:18:00.004+08:00

people get scared of the unknown & unfamiliarity; some people prefer to keep gluing themselves to things that they are used to. things that are secure, predetermined, predictable & well, familiar. this was how i wanted my year to be. problem free.

but, who can blame them? my problems in 2008 caught me SO off guard that it hit me till i was seeing stars. i was so starry-eyed, i couldn't tell what was right or wrong. then it went downhill from there.

i became.....black & white. that was my outlook on life & people. there are just good & bad, nothing in between. if i dont like it then i wont get close to it & otherwise. gitu2 laa. it disturbed me when people i just know wanted too get close to me, i went against my own perception that judging too soon is unfair; i simply became sour.

i was bitter & i wanted to be cautious. always observing the people around me always thinking of their words & actions & even gestures if it shows even one single sign of negativity. through my perceptions. i'd accept rejectance & reject acceptance.

that was wrong.

i do not wanna limit myself like that, & that was me before. i realized that if im gonna be like that, im only looking at the world, my world, with a telescope so small, eventually everything is vague.

even though i do not wanna get hurt again, but i'd rather be out of my shell & happy than in it & being paranoid :P

I DON'T WANNA BE SOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know i can be all over the place sometimes but so what? i cant do RIGID & COMPOSED~ if i am going to get hurt again then that cant be helped, what's supposed to happen will happen. its only the matter of me handling it. anyways, Allah s.w.t. isn't bias. so things will not go ur way if its not meant to be. God makes the rules~

haaaaahhh im babbling & acting tough in the blog & i know that i wont change immediately but the realization is enough for now...teeny weeny tiny baby steps at a time. i can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will stare at 2009 IN THE FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AMY'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hannah, kau budu ;P

2009-01-04T18:42:00.004+08:00

:D :D :D :D :D :D

ndada apa2 baaa mau risau ni

guer pnya BESPREN uda blik dri indon!!!!!!!

trippin' ni kunun....kimeeekkk...

u tend to miss the goods when ur buried & smothered with negative A-NAR-GEE

i was too worried~ =/

hehehehehhehehehhehehehhe thank god dat i havnt done anything dat i wouldve regret yet, like disregarding my loved ones like last time.....ESPECIALLY MUAH BESTFREEEEENNNN :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

AAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lebih2 pulak aku tu kan....u were just away for 8 days :D hu cares...muahahahhah

i MISS her so much!!!! capaaaattttt ko myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! aku mau jumpa hehehehehehhehehehe

09?

2009-01-04T04:32:00.003+08:00

*sigh*

even tho i had a BLAST celebrating my new year, everything was how i wanted it to be, when everything seems perfect, it just wasn't enough =/

it couldn't BURY dis resentment i have for a certain someone. it just wasn't enough to dispose dis sickly feeling right here in my chest. its still there =/

& the first ever complication for the year is, what am i gonna do bout dis?

like i said, i have a fear of talking & letting out things. BODOH. im scared dat if i say wat i wanted to im told dat im wrong. im scared dat if i let it out, the person will reveal more stuff dat'll hurt me more. but more than dat, im scared dat im told i was WRONG.

dat wat i felt all dis time was mere rubbish; it was nothing. my misery is not to be cared about. coz i was WRONG. really, DAT PERSON never really did let me stand up to myself. not to dat person at least. i can go against anyone but....dat person~

should i finally let out wat she already noe? should i change from wat i was last year? wats the right thing to do? argh. for the sake of her, i kept it. it was too much for her, probably couldn't handle the truth. but look at how i turned up.

with wat happened just very very very recently, actually, i noe wats to be done, =/ if i wanted a peaceful year, i have to talk.

*sigh*

those four words are just easier said than done. can people just be more considerate? can people just noe their own mistakes? really....i really2 dislike the type dat did something but just decided to buat bodoh. klu buat bodoh n not do it again nda pa, we're all prone to making mistakes. but sudala buat bodoh. buat lagi. kan mmg bodoh.

ingau. ingaaaaaaaaau.

hmmmm okay i whine. dont like it then dont read.

insomnia & solitude...NOT GOOD

2008-12-29T02:28:00.004+08:00

dammit...y did i have the urge to wake up after only sleeping for an hour...AN HOUR...as far as i remembered, i even sacrificed my "super duper supper" to go to dreamland, including the regular stay-ups with my younger siblings to find out what really happened to sasuke after he chased after the wind thingy group...did gaara became not kawaii anymore? hooh dat arm...did naruto & the rest got the chance to catch up wit sasuke?....

hoookay. its a habit of mine. i follow lights. :D :D :D :D :D

erhem. so i skipped supper & watching naruto till the morn, my two ultimatest syiokest favouritest activity of the day ever, & end up waking up to myself & dis laptop, while everyone's asleep & left me alone >( to make it worse, i cannot go back to sleep *whines*

not fun. not fun at all. sepa suruuuuh. uwaa. my comrades (my adik-adik) followed suit to their general (me) as they found me sleeping, they did the same too. u guys were loyal, so i'll forgive u T________________________T

my optimistic side tells me that dis isn't all dat bad, besides, the evil cockroaches do not seem keen to flying up my head; instead crawling up & down my cabinet. probably coz i had previously worn expired hair spray. hehe. accidently. booyah!! 1-0 for me vs mr. roach.

this situation though can really get u paranoid at times. JEEZ!! the stuff dat comes to ur head!!! i read ms. inden's post (ngehe) & i came across a word dat sent a jolt to my otak right here & probably added raisins to the fruitcake,

" CLOSET "

oh dear. oh dear oh dear oh dear. & so, having quite a collection of skeletons & who knows what in my own beloved closet, they came out to play =/

thank goodness im still in an indifferent mood now, i can look at them skeletons calmly & in proturberance. *sigh* i realized now more than ever dat having dat big of a closet have turned me into a berangin person. cant sweep stuff under the rug all the time hannah.

i realized dat i've turned into an unpredictable person where i keep too much stuff & do not know what to do with them but put on a happy face. 24 hours of 7 days of a week in 1 month. all year long.

& during unexpected times where i suddenly think about it, i burst, not considering the people around me at times.

mind u, its not dat i intentionally do not wanna tell, its my nature. its been my nature since i was born; to not be someone who verbalizes well. i think i've improved over the years. i do have the most AMAYYYZAZINGG people around me, my best friends & family & anggota; but....i have yet to duel with my own demons. goodness. im starting to scare myself :D :D :D :D

& i think its this absurd, disgusting, absolutely not cool KEEP-SILENT-PLEASE culture dat exist here in my environment, dat has been contributing a lot to my uncool condition. seriously, ur cramping my style.

thus, in conclusion, this is what not being able to sleep & the only one awake can do to me, occasionally~ still not a good combination. its eating cheesecake & drinking Cola at the same time. can u imagine what u'll barf out? MUAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! hehe~

i'll retire for now, from dis post at least, there's a chance dat i'll probably write another post. ngehehe. untill then, i owe a dance to dis skeletons-coming-out-of-the-closet feeling. & mr. roach's approaching my territory. fast. *grabs newspaper*

Meet Johnny Smooth

2008-12-28T00:53:00.002+08:00

HAHA!! hehehehheheeeeehehehhehehheh

okay. dis guy is uncanny for words. i like him :D :D :D :D enough said. take him seriously people. READ. READING'S COOL.

however mr johnny, i do not want u in my fav bookstore. nu uh. no how. I'll still read Enid Blyton no matter what u say :D :D :D :D :D

10 random thoughts for the night

2008-12-26T22:11:00.018+08:00

Hair conditioner contributes to pimples & acne.
Why is there bunga manggar in my room?
Peanut butter goes well with chocolate rice. & coloured sugar. & cinnamon powder. & bread.
Do not underestimate Martha Stewart.
Pushing yourself is like........pushing your own damn self. You know you won't go anywhere.
Hi,I'm 9.
Be repulsive. Be, be, repulsive.
Please. That's what I do. PLEASE.
I have a pair of 8 year old socks. neh.
"womanizer womanizer ur a womanizer oh! womanizer oh! womanizer oh! baby U U U U! U U U U!"

Seriously, I'm bored :D

woohhh selamat pagi........

2008-12-25T14:10:00.003+08:00

my head feels like crap~

i didn't have much sleep the day before yesterday

*or...yesterday...?*

thanks to naruto episode 1 till 20 :P :P :P :P

*datebayyyooooooo!!!!*

slept at 8 in the morn

*hmm...kemarin la ni hehe*

woke up at 12, because kazen2ku minta bgun dan menyuruh turun ke cp "MARILA KITANI BETUMPILAKAN D CP!!!!!" T______________________T hehehhehehe another fav brunai word of mine.....betumpilakan...means, beramburan tahap berambur yg amat dasyat dan sangat. secara bida. haa. atutah ya. hehehhehehhe.

ERHEM!! back to my head feeling crappy...sepatutnya la..blik dri bekeluaran dgn kazen2...OH YAAAHHH!!!! kami ada.....NAMA...da malekz heheheheheh like a tribute & rememberance towards our hero, our late grandpa Haji Abdul Malek =)) & not just him actually, all of our relatives =)))

hm. offside.

annnnyyywaaaayyyyys..

*i dont have much time here...capat ba hannahhhh!!!!*

sepatutnya it was supposedly actually & really, jumpa, kumpul with everyone nden watch movie & everyone can go home peacefully & happy. zahir (the goodbye-boy) was leaving to johor

*bru td..uwaaaaaaa ='(*

& farewell la kira. nden, ada org emo & bawa bejamming secara spontan dimana org2 yg berlainan aliran minatan muziknya...telah..dipaksa...main. smpai migrain ni urg.

trus2!! mau blk suda la...half of the malekz suda blk

*uwaaaaaaaa*

trus ada perasaan yg bida muncul di hati beta ini....

*yg bila ko keluar kan, yg teda2 ni ba...mcm teda fungsi ko kuar ni.....*

tanpa menghiraukan kepala ku yg suda berdenyut2, aku ingin makan dan tgk movie. tidak mau blk. rupa2nya, kazen2 ku yg lain pun merasakan sedemikian :D

*wathaa...........*

erhem. so, we ate, talked & watched yes man & went home at 12 :D :D :D

*YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

soooo...smpai rumah......internet ok suda kan....yg malakat d laptop ni namau tidur...there was totally NOTHING i could do at the time, but i wanted to jugak...buat...something......tgkla...smpai 2 ni post aku last night

*ngeheh....*

time mau gerak p katil kan, my walk was wobbly2 eyesight pun mcm betambah ni ba degree kerabunan. neh. sepa suruh.

sekali bangun.....

I CANT EVEN OPEN MY EYES RIGHT.

hastagaaaaaaaaa....

ba tu ja.

a song to myself

2008-12-25T04:00:00.002+08:00

its a bit bittersweet but, here it is, as a reminder to self~

the kooks, ooh la....~~~~

In their eyes is the place that you finally discovered
That you love it here, you've got to stay
On the bottom of the rock, an island
On which you find you love, then you twitch
You felt that itch in your pettycoat
Your pretty pretty pettycoat

And then you smiled he got wild
You didn't understand that there's money to be made
Beauty is a card that must get played
By organizations

And ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
And ooh la, the world just chewed her up, and spat her out
And ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
And ooh la, the world just chewed her up, and spat her out

The world can be a very big place
So be yourself don't get out of place
Love your man and love him twice
Go to Hollywood and pay the price
Oh go to Hollywood

And don't be a star, it's such a drag
Take care of yourself, don't begin to lag
It's a hard life to live, so live it well
I'll be your friend, and not in pretend
I know you girl
In all situations

But ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
And ooh la, the world just chewed her up, and spat her out
And ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
And ooh la, the world just chewed her up, and spat her out

My Monologue

sajasajasajasajasajasajasajasaja

I'm just bored =P

My Recipe to being Fabulous

bulih saya complain panjang-panjang? =D

i need to stop thinking wat other people would think wen i say what i think wen im thinking

Empathy.

some morning rants :D

Good Morning Chow Kit!

I may be an old soul, but I don't have to be 38 years old biologically. T_T

to amy's bruneian stalker ^___^

mari membuat perubahan

Not good.

Many Many Monologues

i never learn xD

not another aquarius?

cukup untuk buat 12,652 koloni bed bugs

oh another day

this'll be quick

stubborn & spoiled right down to the core (whoopsie~)

The Expressive Words of She Who Carried Me for 9 Months

I dont want to, but have to

Quit Kidding Urself xD

Not...what I bargained for

nda mau dgr ckap org suda

Skype!

Working Girl

the microwave is a good guy after all..go green team!

back to back

hush

what if the word "burit" was an everyday, normal word like "saya"?

ooh ovari...

ui si hannah kerja sudah!!!!!

ih..ba apa mau ckap ni?

this familiar dead-end feeling is kinda soothing~~~~~~

<-------- im a shy one... *nosebleed*

the great escape =P

AIYOOO!!! ahahahahahaha..hahahaa..ha..ha..ha...?? apaini????

freedom. in a cage.

I speak in cryptic words :D :D :D :D :D :D

is happiness a choice?

L.O.V.E.

who am i kidding =)

yippee

probably drank too much coffee

hear me ROAR

sweet & simple

great.....now i have to choose between two again

Pucker Up!

i like to explain every single thing bit by bit especially if it has something to do with my blog, from its name to my post's date's font's color

dude, do not shake the bottle. seriously.

=P

astaga!!!! i have an exam tomorow!!!!! @.@

Takziah

Don't need distractions at the moment!

a lesson for all teachers >:D

Flight of the Conchords - JENNY

hari yang paling random

hahh..mcm dpt spek baru

a bad coloured rainbow hahaha

is it too late for a resolution?

update! ;D

must...keep...eyes...open.....

i cant come up with anything intelligent for my title

hehahaha "personality" tests

Guilty of at least 5!! :D

i went a lil overboard T___T

Turmoil strikes again. Argh.

this song is so beautiful.....

aaaaaaa...awkward T_T

I REFUSE TO SLEEP!!!

im getting married soon...~ *blush*

=(

& tonight was no exception

ini EMEEEEH!!! :D :D :D

i'm a BABY

i....erm...

Presenting...Mr. Roach

saya okay

compromise? not in my vocabs at the moment

<-------- im a shy one... nosebleed

im getting married soon...~ blush